Mohabbat kay kitnay roop hein
Pyar kay kitnay rung hein
Kabhi yeh khushi hai
Kabhi yeh gham hai
Kabhi yeh itna hasati hai kay aankh mein aansoo aa jatay hein
Kabhi yeh itna dard daity hai kay aankhein ansoono'n mein doob jati hein
Kabhi yeh taqat hai
Kabhi yeh kamzori
Kabhi yeh waqt rok daity hai
Aur kabhi '. Waqt is kay agay ruk jata hai
Mohabbat kay kitnay roop hein
Pyar kay kitnay rung hein
Aaj Maan kay pyar ka jo rung dekha us kay baad aankhein bheeg gaeen '.
He was laughing with her, enjoying a light beautiful moment with her .. but as if fate didn't want him to laugh too long. He had said once, every time I laugh, I have to shed equal tears. Her words pierced his heart yet again. "Kya hum beth kay baath nahi kar saktay'" her few words and his lips straightened back to a straight-tight line from that beautiful curve which made him look sooooooooo lovable, sooooo adorable, sooooooo endearing.
He looked at her with the same anger, and said some hateful things. But all along, his eyes never supported anything detestable that he said. He held her tight, looked straight in her eyes and told her that one thing which shattered him into pieces. Could you see him breaking, could u see how hard he tried to lie, could you see how bad he was in lying. Every part of his body was shouting "I LOVE YOU GEET" but what we heard was exactly the opposite. When we love someone so much that we cant hate him/her, this is what happens. We want to hear what we want to say, but hearts have a language of their own, body has a language of its own. Amidst all that, there was only one truth he said "I cant see you cry."
He said "I hate you" but she could see that his eyes were saying exactly the opposite. She tried to mend it right there and then. She tried to touch him, because she knew, that was the only way to calm him down. And he knew it too. But he didn't want it. How could he let her touch him. He knew if she would touch him sooo softly, love lovingly, sooooo caringly, he would drown in her love right there and then. He would not be able to keep up with that anger at that moment. And he didn't want to do that, because he knew, after this moment he would still be angry, because what she has done to him was not forgivable. He held her hand, felt her touch one more time, wanted to flow with the moment, but resisted. With a heavy heart and broken senses, he walked away.
His anger on Pinky was not justified, but to me it was as if he wanted to get rid of anyone who can ever make him think about Geet again. Dil kay behlanay ko yeh khayal acha hai. He knew Geet is her close friend and so may be he used the flower and desk excuse to fire her. Though he didn't want to. He has never been unfair in his life. He has always been just and fair. He has always been honest to his heart, but pyar insaan ko kabhi kabhi sab bhula daita hai. Anyways, I am sure Pinky's issue will be resolved by tomorrow :)
We try and run from the person we love, but how can we run from our own heart. When heart calls, nothing can stand in between. That's the power, almighty has given to our heart. And that's the power Maan felt of his own heart over his mind and his plans. Can he ever stay away from her? Can he ever run away from her?
He was talking to Sasha when he felt Geet's presence. It was
as if, the wind gave him the message, the air which he breathes gave him the
message. "wo hawa jo tumhain chook ay aye
hai, maine ussay choo'a hai abhi." And he knew she was here. he walked towards that corner from where he could breathe her but Adi came in between ....
He went o his office, But angry at the same time ' not wanting to accept he can still love her this much. That unguarded, look on his face when he was holding his chair and asking himself, why can't he let go of Geet, brought a tear in my eye. But he knew all his answers. He knew right then, she flows in his veins like blood; he knew right then, she lives in his heart like a heartbeat; and no matter how hard or fast he tries to run, she will still be there. SHE WAS HERE TO STAY.
And like a man who found love, and lost it, he sat on the
chair, unguarded, unprotected, and vulnerable. But the call of her love was
even stronger, she peeped inside, saw him breaking, and couldn't take the pain.
Her pain went straight to his heart and he looked up, feeling her presence
yet again. He almost ran out of the office, as if, he was DYING to see Geet, as if
his life depended on getting one glance of her, as if he would lose everything
if he would not see Geet ' NOW.
But he lost it. He couldn't see her. He wanted support, and the only support he had was that wall. He wanted Geet. His hurting senses and his lost body wanted Geet. He wanted her to hold him, to touch him, to comfort him, but he couldn't say it, he couldn't say it to anyone, not even to his own self.
He couldn't bear a single more second without looking at her and as if it was a punishment to his eyes for not being able to look at Geet, tears filled them. The world got blurry, the senses got hazy and he felt his mind loose every control on his heart.
He was Truly, Madly, Deeply, Unconditionally, Profoundly, Extremely, Severely, IN LOVE WITH GEET HANDA. And nothing could ever change that fact.
When unintentionally her dupatta touched his face, he first felt its softness, then Geet's soothing smell and he immediately opened his eyes '. As if he had just got a message of life again, as if all his wishes were granted, he looked here and there, dying to see his lady love one more time, but in vain.
I am thankful to you Geet for take this step on getting him locked in this room with you. I never doubted your smartness, and this one is perfectly in harmony to that. Well done lady, for a job well done. He went back to his angry avatar, when he saw himself in one room, locked with her. Every time he is alone with her, he fights with her ' but to be frank, he fights with his own self. He fights with his vulnerability, he fights with his emotions, he fights with his fears. More than anger, I could see a strange kind of fear in his eyes, as if he was afraid that if I would stay too long in this room with her ' alone ' I might loose every battle I am fighting with my own self ' but Geet was determined and I love her for that.
I usually don't talk about Precaps, but this one made me cry, a mere 10 seconds clip, geets breakdown, Maan's astonishment as well as the pain he felt for Geet when she told him about the one night marriage and his running away, was a breakdown for me. I couldn't take it. But that's for tomorrow. I will hold my comment, and my tears .. because I know, tomorrow when I would write, I would cry, and what u would read would not be written with ink, but my tears.
I love you Maan Singh Khurana and today I have to say, I love you Geet Handa '. Both of you ROCK!!!!
Lots of love,
Kashish
P.S.
Here is a link of Nupur's DESERT Post ... She is one of the best in making lovely deserts for Maan and for allll of us.
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