Zoya 🤗
I hadn't seen the Pre leap scene, those accusations and I had been safe. I happened to watch yesterdays episode and ever since I can't seem to shrug off the feeling of disgust, confusion, sadness over what they made YHM into...destroyed every relation, every positive influence or aspect related to this show to justify a leap. But I've come across a brilliant write up from you and can't seem to avoid replying to it.
I have always been team IshRa, always understood and been able to justify them both. And even in spite of the fact that Raman is so severely flawed and complex...I have a soft corner, that tend to gets partial to him. And for that same reason I tried and tried and kept trying to justify his words and actions to myself.
Many people or even I myself would question this. Question my moral standing, of how much of a feminist I am if I am trying to root for IshRa even after all this? But it all comes back to the same thing, this is FICTION, this isn't real and these are characters made out of good and bad, where sometimes the good overpowers and sometimes the bad. So I keep trying to want to understand Raman, want Ishita to take stands, want a redemption from the man for the venom he has been spewing.
Thank you for clarifying, or reasoning why Raman would be like this, be a man whose so hurtful, dark and dead. He's lost his light, his two most important people. He has felt agony and the 7 years of that pain and turmoil was so much to bear that he unburdened it. He has lost a child that breaks the best of two people apart. And yesterday he happened to get a Deja vu, where he felt he was back to the moment 7 years back...All these reasons may never be an excuse but are certainly part of how emotions network in certain people.
But then again my brain somehow keeps coming back to the fact that now or even 7 years ago when that accident happened,when they lost Ruhi. Why did Raman think Ishita could ever harm Ruhi? How did he conclude she's ominous? Has he forgotten that if not for her, he wouldn't have either of his kids had it not been for her? She sacrificed her own life so many times to save them? Ishita is more than a mother to them...I'd like for this to be explained to me. Because I genuinely want to feel better about it.
P.S - I still root for IshRa, they maybe toxic and in a real world they should be sentenced to a lifetime of imprisonment so that they both stop messing with each other and the world 😆 But I still root for them, because they are characters far more realistic than various others like you said, they are dark, flawed and complex...but they're just characters. Only I wish that the narrative didn't compromise so heavily on morals I can't seem to shrug off.
And most importantly, I totally agree when you say this isn't beauty and the beast. I keep taunting the show for using that concept but even I believe, Raman isn't a beast, but was helped to face his true self by Ishita who needed to be herself too and the relation helped her do that ( in better times)
Anupamaa
