Originally posted by: asmitamohanty
Finally got to write something after a long day on a episode... I loved so much..so many thoughts... unrelated to the episode...but felt like sharing...
And now that you don't have to be perfect,
You can be good....
Steinbeck in East of Eden..
Appu Dii and Bodomaa how wonderful people they are....
The reason that I love Appu Dii more than so many other character is because she has saved Aniruddh & she doesn't even know it..She is his beacon,his hope.I see her as a flame that burnt steadily in the darkest spaces of his life. If it was not Appu di then Aniruddh probably would have died of suffocation behind the mask called Aniruddh Bose...
How can I not love a girl who is probably the only one in Bose house who has always put Aniruddh at the top of her priority list? Not on a pedestal..Yes her childish admiration & adoration makes her lovable, the way she looks at him ,as if he is more than a man of flesh and bone,as if she trusted him blindly is so beautiful to see..Yet when he doesn't live up to her expectations,she doesn't shut him out.He is still the person she chooses to complain to even if it is about himself..he is still the person she breaks down before, he is still the person she still hopes to somehow manage everything.... Aniruddh doesn't have to be flawless for her ,he doesn't need to be a superhuman either.All he has to do is to 'be.'..
She is the only person around whom he is not walking in eggshells..He has no insecurities as he probably knows that even if he makes mistakes she will not abandon him,she will still love her.. That's probably why his guard was dropped before her .his mask fell...
At the cost of sounding repetitive I say that Ani plays many parts in her life...he is a younger brother who loves and admired her sister and most importantly respects her talent..and he is also sometimes a father to her..She is stuck at a age when he was abandoned by his parents as a child, the way he looks at her showering her with so much love as if caressing that poor child inside him ...It was him that provided her with the solicitude as well as the solace that makes her feel safe & loved.It is his presence that soothes her and vice versa...
The way Ani cupped her crying face holding on as if fearing that this time after his actions may be this love will suddenly disappear,as if he wanted to crawl inside of her & hide from the feelings he doesn't know how to deal with.The void, the sinking feeling...He had a lot of things to say,to express...But he couldn't..He must have thought "Appudi you have no idea how lucky you are right now that at least you can cry this openly..."
Something that intensifies Aniruddh's emotional moments & keeps them grounded is that he never exagerrates his tears. His eyes become flooded, you see one or two tears dangling from the eyelashes for a long moment & then they flow out...That is what makes my chest constrict in pain....
When Appu di with her purity of heart, unadulterated love breaks down for Jhanak.. I could feel every emotions along with her...Appudi character deserves so much more...
I don't like when she is presented just as a device to bring Jhanak closer to Aniruddh, she is someone who has saved him from himself,to provide him with a single proof that yes..he is worthy of receiving happiness, unconditional love...
And Bodomaa...
What a woman!! How much pure and dignified she is!!! Yet filled with pure love for Ani...
I remember her telling Jhanak once that " Ani bohot accha hai...pata nahi Kyun Aisa kar Raha hai" ...there was no judgement or anger...or taunt...she knows her Ani..and she was genuinely interested to know why!!
This time also she is not angry...or disappointed..sad due to the circumstances..yes..but she knows her Ani's heart..." Wahi karna jo tumhara dil kahe..." She knows his heart can't do any injustice to anyone ..be it Jhanak or Arshi...
I so wish Ani and Bodomaa bond was shown more.. I wish he was closer to her..I know he is grown up around her and is closer to her than his own mother..but still there is a distance..may be bcz of Appu Dii..Bodomaa could not give him the time that a child like Ani with a lot of insecurities required...and for Ani who couldn't find love from his mother...it was difficult to connect...but still what she feels for him is soo maternal...
But still she is not being able to shower it on him...as she is showering it on Jhanak...
Actress is soo good...
Instead of exploring such beautiful characters...makers are stuck with third angle.....
And yes...
Love and adoration from these two people- is what he has always deserved & never received from the people he expected it from..his parents...I hope he will get it soon...
And ray of hope...Minu....what an amazing woman she is...a combination of kind hearted Ness and strength...
A much needed positive addition...who can be a big strength and support to both Jhanak and Ani...a good role model for Jhanak...
Hope she brings the much needed light in the show
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