Did they give us a heart to heart shakhi conversation? Is this for real?! I am crying....the episode was so beautiful. I was wishing for this since so long and today I finally got one half of it. Obviously as the story progresses, we will see how anokhi communicates baggage of her past, her fears and her insecurities.
Loved the tu zaroori sequence and enjoyed it even more when rewatched the episode the 2nd time, since the depth added in their intimate scene after their heart to heart conversation was on another level. Loved the sequence and it was so beautifully shot too. Amazing job makers.
"You don't know what that feeling is anokhi"
And that's how it started, the unravelling of his past, his emotions, his insecurities.... he outpoured it all and anokhi, she listened. And that is the biggest action one can ever do to heal the wounds of a scarred soul.
She listened without judgement, without bias, she provided that safe space for him to bare his soul in front of her. He never found that person in 30 years of his life, but since the day he met her... she was hellbent on breaking those boundaries and breaking those walls that he had built around himself, so that no one can reach to the deepest parts of his soul, the dark ones, the ones who hold nothing but pain. He resisted everytime she crossed the boundaries but his resistance fell weaker and weaker until the day he accepted and surrendered. Today it is.
"I am sorry PS, mujhe nahi pata tha-"
"Kaise pata hoga anokhi, maine kisi ko bataya hi nahi iss baare mein"
And there it is; she realised that the choice she gave him to choose from, was her mistake, she accepted and she apologised; yet she wasn't completely at fault since she was unaware, and the situation was complex; while her mind, in chaos...
The first time in 30 years, he communicated to someone because he trusted her, and she has earned that trust rightfully.
"Dard ho ya gussa, yeh ek hi mulaqat mein khatam todhi na ho sakta hai, lekin dard ho ya gussa in sab cheezin ke zyada der apne andar nahi rakhna chahiya, aur zyada nuksan pahuchati hain"
This is the line of thinking due to which she has survived her childhood, afterall this kind of resilience and strength was required if she dreamt of flying, she had to be resilient, if she dreamt of breaking that cage.
"Muje pata hai ki jab aapka koi apna aapke saath kuch galat karta hai toh kaisa lagta hain. Mujhe hi mere papaji se hazaar shikayaatein hain, pata nahi ki main kabhi inn sab ko mita paungi ki nahin"
Shaurya believes that anokhi might not be able to understand, but usko yeh pata hai shaurya, ki koi paas reh kar bhi jab aapke saath nahi hota hai toh kaisa lagta hai.... waise hi jaise you know how it is afterall, shaan was with you but still; couldn't give you the father's love.
Anokhi ke saath toh nahi hi the uske papaji, aur uske against hi the; itne ki he inflicted physical, verbal and emotional abuse on her along with neglect.
"Tumhara jaisa bhi rishta tha tumhare papaji ke saath, kam se kam dukh sukh mein tumhare saath to the, meri mom to thi hi nahi"
And this is where he is wrong... firstly wrong to dismiss of her emotions just like that. Secondly, wrong to believe that no matter the kind of relation, a present parent is better; no it is not.
If love isn't present, then present or absent parent; it doesn't make a difference.
"Mere aur apne pain ko compare mat karo", he said this to her back then to dismiss her and did the same now. This is where is soch needs to change.
"Kyu ki pain to pain hota hai, aur iska sirf ek kaam hota hai; apko hurt karna"
{Hopefully, this isn't the end of their convo, and her side of the story is brought in front of shaurya as story progresses. I think whenever he will get to know abt her past and understand it; it will be a big changing point for him and his soch; he will see the ground situation of how much girls in the narrow minded surroundings have to struggle for something as basic as education.}
The minute he dismissed of her feelings, I noticed The moisture that build up in her eyes; it might have been due to listening to his pain too but something tells me that a part of it was also because it hurts, when someone disregards your struggle, you emotions in such a manner.
Ek se haq usse behrehmi se cheena gaya; aur dusre ka haq usko ek pal bhi naseeb bahi hua.
And both will gradually understand eachother, anokhi took the first step, it's shaurya's turn now to take the second; since relationship is a team effort.
Shaurya's growth will be when he understands that he can't expect her to understand his emotions while he keeps dismissing hers. Hopefully, soon.
Anokhi's love can't be doubted. She loves him and that's a fact, she understood his fears and insecurities and was there to support him but she has her own baggage to deal with. She might be very resilient but child abuse still effects the child in serious ways. When you can't trust own father as a child for your safty and security. When one's own father instead of taking care and doing good for the child resorted to abuse, how can that child trust anyone else so easily? The baggage that she carries has resulted in anokhi having trust issues and this is something that she always had from the beginning.
"Tumne jaan buchke meri bus miss karvayi?" {feels wierd to hear tum, but probably kuch din mein aadat ho jayegi😆; now would also be a good time to get rid of PS, and anokhi calls him shaurya}
Sometimes even after subconsciously knowing that this person can be trusted, trust issues don't let you wholeheartedly trust them. Trusting while having trust issues is like a pendulum, sometimes strong, and other times fragile.
"I'll figure it out, don't worry; trust me"
"Shuruwat se bas trust trust yahi kehte aaye ho tum , but har baar tum trust thod dete ho"
You are trying your best shaurya, to be as good of a husband as possible, but just saying trust me is not enough to address her trust issues and for her insecuritites to subside. You would need to prove it through your actions that you can be trusted with.
Specially by toning down the impulsiveness and anger issues. And impulsive person when angry can't be trusted with and that's a fact. At the same time, anokhi needs to realise her own flaws of taking things at its face value disregarding the fact that their could be some other perspective too.
Both will grow, alongside their relationship.
"Tumhe bhi farq nahi padhne wala, tum bhi toh sabherwaal ho"
"Ye hai woh badlav?"
And which brings us back to the starting of the episode where anokhi says,
"Maine bhi toh koshish ki thina share karne ki, apna dar, apni insecurities, par aapne kya kiya, ek baar koshish ki aur ohir give up kar diya"
Such a prominent line which will make all the difference in the future. Shaurya has grown a lot form where he staerted but he still has more growing to do, in his soch and his flaws, along with anokhi in the flaw department too...and we are here to cherish this journey...
Uff, a long post 😆; some episodes make me write such long essays I can't lol🤣 but I enjoy writing them, analysing such amazing episodes gives me so much happiness😳
Ignored shagun's presence like a pro😉
I criticise the show whenver I am not satisfied and say that my hopes are down to zero now, aur phir usi ke baad they give such a satifying and amazing episode that meri hopes phir raise ho jaati hai
But now, i will try to keep my hopes down to zero kyu ki tabhi itne ache episodes milte hai.
Dialogue writers, and the whole crew was amazing today alongside kv and deba. Both were just amazing today.
Now, going to watch the episdoe on tv, don't forget to do the same (if possible obv)
Take care and stay safe❤️
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