Wow I love this,
I love(ed) writing, then life happened.... With this changing IF format I hope to do something.
I love writing Romcoms and dark stuff without star-crossed lovers and proses.
Here I present one of my darkest proses,
Disclaimer - you may like or not like, your choice but no negative criticising, I've had enough for this oneπ
Apetalous!
Sitting in the dark, I hug my knees...
Acting oblivious to it's presence but it knows it's a pretense!
"Just once... be brave and it will be over!" the black smoke whispers
Irresistible is its voice
Blowing slowly in my ears to seduce me into agreement.
With the sweetest entice powerful enough to lure the dead!.
"Don't be coward, this time slice the main pulse!"
It again says in a whisper, making me look at it
Giant as a Ferris wheel it smirks as a monster!
I look down muffled at my earlier tries
Looking down at my wrists trying to make a decision which one this time!
No peace in mind, No peace in heart.
The sweet intelligent me was no one to be spared a glance!
I hear the demons screaming in my head, encouraging me to let them free!
"Just be brave and it will be over"
I say taking up an improvised knife
About to embrace the dark, but I see their face!
I see them scream, I see them in pain!
Making all my resolve all the sudden break!
I need my family, but I feel alone!
Making me nothing but a freaking looser!
I hear a sob, I hear a cry,
Later only to realize it was my!
I start to scream with no sound out of my mouth,
No one to make it fine, no one to claim as mine.
"Please take me out of this hell!"
Feeling so scared, my soul shattered in despair...
With darkness surrounding, I see the abyss
"Try again, I will take you away!"
The smoke of death encourages again
"Screw everyone, get lost!" I yell at it
It fades spiting at me calling me a coward...
I walk back to look at the blades
Thinking about which one to take...
I don't care what you think, but try not to get me wrong!
I have shooed away the death but that's not all...
I feel numb, I feel nothing!
Nothing left in me to hold on my spine.
I pick up a blade sharper than a butter knife...
And...
My eyes close in bliss...
My fists clench and blood oozed out more!
From the place far away from the life vein...
I smile that of content...
Just to relish the thing that I can feel something more...
PS-I'm healthy as a horse and not depressed, this was just figment of imagination π
Edited by Zephyr_57 - 4 years ago
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