He didnt know why he was feeling the way he had started to feel these days.
If she was in his mind before, now she made her permanent resident in him. He blushed at the thought of how their breathe entangled while they let their emotions control them.
He couldnt feel the right explanation to his sudden change of behaviour. He wanted to shut her out and never look back. But even for a minute if she wenr out of his sight, he becomes visibly restless. He began to make silly excuses just to be around her. He knew he had begun to pester her lately, but he just couldn't help! She was making him do it. Her voice, her soft smile, the way her hair moved, the way she carried herself, everything about her started to excite him even more.
He wanted to read her but she was a close book with too make passcodes around. However there were days when she let her guard downs and there he found a glimpse of the maya that holds the power to touch his heart where no one had ever reached till date .
He wanted to ask her whether she knew voodoo because thats how he felt around her , like he is being spell bound and couldnt take his eyes off her. He knew she was awarw about the changes he is going through around her, he caught her softly smiling when she thought no one is looking at her. He also saw her catching glimpse at him , sometimes when she thought he was not noticing. But, little did she knew, she was all , he had his attention on in past few days. He could feel his heart skipping a beat as she passed him. Or when she spoke to him over phone. Rudra roy was changing! She was moulding him into new person. A soul who has only her thirst.
He saw her leaning on her chair with her eyes closed. His eyes refused to leave her face. Even when Ananya began pulling him away, his feet just refused to leave the spot. He wanted nothing more but to hold her. Its like she has brought him, to a point where he craved for her. He needed her like he needs oxygen, even more than it.
She made him crazy, she brought some strange emotions in him which he never thought he would ever feel. He began to feel jealous of his own brother. The way she was easy with rishi and not him , made him bother. He couldnt sleep those nights where she even spoke to rishi and avoided him. He shouldnt be feeling this, but he felt so territorial around her. He knew its bad to be so over possessive about anyone but he couldnt help. He just couldnt.Rudra roy was driven by his emotions. And right now all his emotions were directed towards one person, Maya.
Tears have began to form in his eyes as he fought with his own urges. He told her to not be around him, he himself couldnt follow the simple rule. He embraced the fact that the kiss was an incident but his body refused to agree on the same term.
It was like she had some magnet to her that pulled rudra to her where ever she goes. He smiles at himself remembering the day when maya didnt come to office and ananya informed him that she was unwell. He didnt even waited for ananya to finish her sentence and he made a run to maya's home. To see her was all that mattered to him in the moment. But when he reached her door steps, she refused to open the door and let him come in. He should have felt bad, hurt or anger but neither of these emotions touched him, he was encircled by worry, fear and pain. He wanted to see her, know whether she is okay. He could feel the pain she must be suffering through her illness. He even tried to climb her window but she leaved on 22nd floor and that plan had miserably failed, ending up with security dragging rudra out of building. But what made him smile that she had come to help him out of this mess. He liked the way she fought with security and than with him.
How could he break his own promise?...how could he not follow his own rule?
What are you doing to me Maya? He cried but with a smile on his lips. She was the sweetest memory, she was his biggest pain.
Sukoon bhi tum, bechaini bhi tum
Dard bhi tum, dawa bhi tum
Dariya bhi tum , aur tumhi sahil..
Ab tere bin jeena ..ae Dil hai mushkil!!
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