Babita was overwhelmed with Hanuman's gesture of uniting her with her brother. She was looking at him while he lowered his eyes. It bothered her a bit why was he not looking at her. She wanted to thank him but something was stopping her still.
Pinku's arrival brought more fun and color to festival of Rakshabandhan as Babita tied him rakhi and finally broke her fast. There was a family reunion with Minnie's cousin also arriving and Minnie tying rakhi to her brother. Everyone was busy chatting and reminiscing old memories when life was much simpler. Minnie was laughing at childhood antics of her babes and her Pinku Mama as Pinku narrated them those precious little memories..
Babita looked around to see where he was.. He was standing in the corner of the room watching them over with a smile on his face that reached perfectly in his eyes. Their eyes met as she quietly thanked him with those gentle warm eyes filled with tears.. He acknowledged her thanks with closing of his eyes and that gentle nod..
There was so much to say.. Babita was feeling restless in the night but why was he not talking.. He has not still apologized for his rude behavior that night.. and then even if she was not speaking to him... why was he not making any effort to do the same.. She was alone in his veranda , he was still not home. Minnie was already in her bed tired from day's event , she had asked her mother to come and sleep but her babes had been in another world of her own.. There was door bell and she opened without much delay as if standing right at door. He was there , they both remembered last time they were in that situation. It was a painful memory for both , some words said.. two hearts broken.. and thus a week's long silence.. Storm had passed them but still wounds were yet to be healed. She quietly gave way to him as he entered and closed the door behind him. He saw that plate of food on his table as she was slowly going back to her room.. Her silence was killing him.. Yes he told Naem Bi that he didn't care much but he knew inside how hard it was to bear this silence when they had so much inside them ripping them apart. Minnie's question in the morning about how will he handle if she was to leave his life.. still haunting him in strange ways..
Kiraydaarniji .. He uttered those words stopping her middle way..
She turned around to look at him as he got near to her.
Mhari baatein itni chub gayi aapko.. Jaanta hu bahot dil dukhaya aapka.. aapse pehle bhi keh chuka hu.. ki aap daant liya karo..saza de diya karo.. par rutha na karo aise.. jab ek dum se chup ho jaati ho na aap.. seh nhi paata main..
Ek sorry nhi kaha gaya aapse.. Aur mere roothne par mujhse rooth gaye.. Babita had complaints of her own.. ofcourse they were accompanied with lot of tears from those eyes.. as she wiped them from her dupatta..
haan dukhaya dil aapne bahot.. kabhi apna samjha hota toh aise dur na karte aap.. Hanuman was left confused as her crying increased making him more restless..
Arey arey aap .. mhari baat toh suniye... He tried calming her down.. by gently placing his hands on her shoulder.. making her sit on sofa gently.. He gave her handkerchief to wipe her tears ..as she continued her complaints to him.. She carried on how hurt she was when she was just concerned for him and he brutally tarnished their relationship.. His words had hurt her so deep , he didn't realise it earlier..but he was glad that Atleast she was letting it all out.. Her complaints , taunts to him made him feel better that night.. He wanted her to go on and on.. Complaints continued bit longer but it brought a smile on hanuman's face.. as he watched her like a small kid complaining to him about how confused he has made her all this while about their relationship.. what is she to him..and what rights she has over him.. She caught him smiling as she wiped her tears ..
Aap has rahe hain.. aapko maza aa rha hain.. yaha main itna kuch kahi ja rhi hu.. aur aap bas muskura rahe hain.. Babita complained in a child like manner.. as hanuman wiped her tears with gentle touches..
It was first time she was actually talking about their relationship that openly to him.. How can he explain to her what she means to him.. if he has to.. Some things only eyes can convey at times.. He knew exactly how hurt she was.. but didn't she know that he was hurting along with her.. She had a long way to understand that depth of love inside him..
His eyes had so much love for her that made her blush.. She remembered what Poonam had told her previous night.. Was life giving her a second chance , Was it that love she never experienced before in her life. Yes he never confessed but did she needed his words to be sure of his love. She was already drawn to his true love for her, his unconditional love of a father to her daughter, his standing by her side always like a rock .. But What if she could never provide him love that he deserves .. like his Imarti had given.. Thinking about that she got to leave when her eyes caught that photo on wall.. His past.. His beautiful past.. love that he already experienced.. was it something that she could ever fill his life with...
When Babita looked at that photo on wall, Hanuman understood what she was feeling ..as he got up and moved towards her.
Imarti Imarti thi.. He continued from where they had left that night.. when that distance had crept up..
Par aap Babita ji hain.. Mhari daughter ki mother.. Mhari kirayedarniji.. Mhari dost.. woh kehte hain friend.. Aapki jagah alag hain.. mhare ghar mein.. mhare dil mein... he choked as he said it .. those words made her close her eyes..as she turned around .. and went to his and Imarti's photo.. wiped dust of it.. and caressed her gently.. There was another photo lying around.. which Hanuman didn't notice as Babita had kept on his dressing table that evening.. She put that photo on his wall..
They were his family .. Something she accepted long back..
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