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A Love Beyond Words...
Whoever finds love
beneath hurt and grief disappears into emptiness with a thousand new disguises
~ Rumi
I want to forget Everything that had happened, That I had been in Love Cause I don't want to hurt myself and HIM Again...
Is it so easy to forget you???
When all I remember Is only You ...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The sky was low and dark. The thick cloud, grey as the stone they pulled from the quarry, gave the monochromatic world outside a claustrophobic feel. By this time of day the birds should have been singing and the horizon tinged with reds and pinks, oranges sometimes. But everything seems hazy dark this morning she could not bring herself to look at any particular place. This winter morning resembles her life devoid of colors...
She could not stop herself from giving into her heart and cry for Him. She's broken from inside and it's difficult to be away from him. The One Man who had Loved her with his all being. She had shove him away from her.
It's been 2 years that She's living like this but all her life whenever alone most of the times she would cry herself to sleep cause only Sleep was something that makes us forget the condition we are in for time being.
Her past has been never easy and then HE came and things started to change but she was not WORTHY to be love by him... And she? She was Geet an unfortunate girl to not deserve Love...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(2 years before)
Geet's P.O.V
All my life I have been hurt by others and was breaking within all along. Maybe I don't deserve Love that's why all alone now. This loneliness doesn't help to move ahead and cope up with this world. With guilt, Pain I got to know one thing clearly love hurts a lot...
It's just not Beautiful how they always say or show it's beyond just single Feeling of love And I'm experiencing all of it.
I have not had a pleasant past to recall that With pleasure. Childhood didn't go well with me Nor with That person Arav with whom I've spent My 10 months of life I could not survive that Marriage more just than that... So Don't want to think about that phase either. We do suffer in life and it's better to forget them and move on. And I try to do that but failed to get it done...
I have Thought to Establish myself in All means and it took me almost 3 years to come out from shadows of my past and complete my study, find a job to support myself...
Here I am now after 4 years of struggling with things in life finally I have reached a height to survive normally. Where's everything that surround me seems Beautiful. I'm getting what I want still something feel amiss a person maybe to call as my own,to be with someone? I want to start my own family now...
No... not like that I mean adopting a baby cause I'm not ready to get married again. I don't believe in Marriage anymore I can't bring myself to go through everything again I have trust issues now and insecurities within me which troubles me a lot. I'm taking counseling I hope that helps but experience with Men has been awful. I'm really broken from inside to be in any relationship right now. I'm living alone for years and I love this loneliness I don't like any crowd that surrounds me.
But things doesn't go according to us Cause My life has changed from that moment when MAAN he Had Made His presence in it but out of all things I just keep remembering that last moment with him when he had walked out on me.
Love me enough to not drown away
Hold me with you so I don't part away
Be always there with me
You were the one I could ask for ...
...
...
...
But still what was there who was at fault
That we are not together today is it me?
Or It was You Who Have left me to Drown
But I'm The One who's at fault isn't it???
I remember Those each moment spent with him... Those memories are my companion now ...
I was so engrossed in You That
Never Realize one day will ever come when
I'll be parted from You and
From deprived of being Loved By You
Can I get You back Again ????
When we were together my past which was holding me always started to impact our life. Those days I was insecure. My insecurities were eating me from inside I used to Feel guilty to accuse him always. He was taking everything all I know is he's hurt too but he's hiding his Hurt. It will be not pleasurable to get doubted always by the person whom you love so much...
Our vague conversation floating in airs to me when I have seen his ex talking with him we had fight that night...
"I have thought It was only us who exist. You, me and Your Love for me that you always keep saying
It was hurting When I knew
I'm not the only one whom You had in life
And It was worst when I knew
I was not that only one whom you Love"
Ironic huh I have been married before and was involved with someone else and so much things in past still I can't think Maan with anyone else it feels he came to my life and changed everything now I fear to lose him. He did so many things for me. Accepted me in his life showering his love still I was fighting with him for His loyalty though he had said in past he had few casual relationship but today I've heard That girl saying they have loved each other. And for me it's seem too intimate Feeling that you have love someone else and feel same for me?
WHAT is difference between her and me then? He says he loved me only where as I could not bring courage to say him I Feel Same Cause he's my 1st and probably last love ...
"It's nothing like that
What you have heard it's wrong
She Thought we have Loved each other
But I have not Loved Anyone
Except You... You believe me right, Geet?"
I envy him so much he opens up with his Feelings so bluntly always where as I'm a coward always deeply drown in insecurities that I can not even open up with him about my feelings.
Things started to get more complicated between us with time my nature was almost aggressive towards him. Where as he was patient always and at the end of the day I would have always given up to his love, His Care, He always have been so affectionate to me he had given me All love from which I was deprived all my life. With him I was secure always but I was getting selfish he was giving everything to this relationship despite both of us working in busy schedule he never ignored me. He used to take out times to be with me and I could give him nothing in return not even few words of Love cause I think once he gets to know my feelings too he will leave me or I will not have him forever with me. Which is not true Still I feel if I open up he would lose his interest in me. I'm wrong in this I know but I'm ready to be selfish in love and not going to take any chance and I keep thinking why would he love someone like me? A messed up girl where is he's perfect in All sense anyone would want in their companion.
Every single day Same situation repeating maybe I'm going crazy I'm guilty how much I'm hurting him and he's still Ready to love me and comforting me from my own demons. He's way to perfect he doesn't deserve this life I'm not worthy of him it was not right decision to involve him in My life I don't deserve any happiness. I have realized how wrong I have been always hurting him depriving him from happiness which were his right and he was selfless always that's what making it more tough for me we both can't stay without each other nor I think can stay together?
When things started to get out of control I could not stay with him more I can't do this anymore with Him or me. He's suffering with me. Maybe I can never lead a normal happy life or I should just end everything? I decided to leave everything behind me...
I can give away my life if it brings his happiness then living without him is not less than death for me. I know he would be hurt but time will heal everything.. What I didn't know is things were not so easy to do how it seems at first place...
"I'm leaving."
"What do you mean? Have got some work at this time?"
Maan seemed Confuse. I couldn't explain Him my reason he would not understand. So better If I came straight to the point.
"I got to be away from You. I can't lead this Life... You really don't deserve Someone like me."
Quickly I said whatever I have planned for this day but when I'm facing it... it's difficult. He remained stunt for a moment as if that's something difficult to understand what he has heard. Grasping the reality His face gone to pale, his saddened face is so hurting like it's killing me within.
"Geet I.. I love you. Why would you think like that?"
Maan breathed out as if he was having difficulty to breathe. Great he just has to say those words which were always so powerful to make me weak with emotions...
I held my head with both of my hands, I just want to erase his words from my mind and not let out my own feelings to him I was reminding myself constantly he deserves a better life. It hurts a lot to see him upset like this. Why he has to love me out of all the people in the world???
"Let me go please" I pleaded him, things which I have been facing from early life everything was taking a toll on me, I was alone all this time no one made me feel Loved all I've gotten in this life was Pain and now I have someone who meant so much and love me in return despite of everything but I didn't want to hurt him in anyway possible which I was doing to him constantly...
"I can't let you go. Even if I wanted to fulfill everything you want. We are meant to be together. How could you just say something like that?" Maan said stepping closer to me.
"I don't belong here with you, I'm not the right person to be with you." Tears started to roll down from my eyes.
"You need to move on From your Past And For God sake Geet we Love each other, How could you think of leaving me? I can't imagine my existence without you moreover your past doesn't bother me."
Wish it was so easy to not get bothered over my past...
"I have tried giving myself a chance but my fear and insecurities are not letting me to move on. I can only dream of a normal life but its not going to happen with me. It will never happen Maan."
I backed away slowly. I have to assure him it's my past which is reason of my leaving. He would surely not like this weak girl to spend his life with?
"I'm realizing no matter what happens, my past will always hold me back in it's chain my fear and insecurities will not leave me behind. And I can't give you anything except for hurt, Pain."
His eyes never leaving Mine and I just want to run away from here from his sight.
"Why are you speaking like that? I have loved you beyond all these things they really doesn't matter to me you know that."
He walked towards me once again. Where I was backing away from him.
"Stop there and Don't stop me please. I can't do this... anymore please let me go if you have ever Loved me..."
And that did work he react this time.
"If I have Loved? Didn't you ever Love me Geet?" His tone turned serious I averted my eyes from his questioning gaze. Each moment that was passing between us was getting impossible for me to bear. It was suffocating to have this conversation. I want to be out from here and breathe.
"All I ask Is your one glance to me,
So that I can know what I feel for You,
If You reciprocate the same Geet?"
He was making things more difficult for me. I love Him but can't say it to him he will not let me go then. I have to be selfless this time and let go of him for his sake. Having composed myself I look forward straight looking in His grey pairs.
"No...I didn't. I have never Loved You."
He didn't respond but looked at me with eyes depicting his pain, I knew I'd probably hurt him so much that he may hate me now but I couldn't stay. I was lost right now in grief, slowly I was becoming too much attached with him it hurts me to even think of a moment away from Him. Same time hurting him every single day is not something he could take for longer. One day or the other he will get fed up of this Life and leave me so it's better if I leave before things get more serious. Guess love is not enough to survive we need trust in our relationship which I'm unable to do right now. Years of counseling doesn't help when it comes to real relationship.
"You don't need to leave this House It's Yours too. If anyone is leaving then it's me. As I'm the one who's troubling you so much."
His voice is stern now devoid of any emotions. I shook my head he's getting things wrong moreover I can't stay Here it's His house. How can I???
"You are staying here that's final. I don't want to hear a word more in this. At Least I would be assured my Wife is safe away from any trouble. At least give me some respect to not disobey me for I am your so called husband."
He has never spoke to me like that So roughly he has been always soft when it's come to me.
He knows how sensitive I have become after my 1st Marriage. His tone always has been full of assurance, sometimes flirty it had been loving always. Maybe I have ruined that LOVE with my own hands. It feels horrible to think he hates me now it's just not bearable I want to get away from everything, it's getting difficult to breathe in Here. I just looked down releasing a long breathe having nothing to say. We have been married for 8 months now and things are ending this way. Why it has to be so difficult?
I saw Him doing something with his phone he was talking with someone with his back towards me he's leaving but where? Do I want to know that? After he finished his call, he turn towards me and he looks so changed like in this few moments spend between us that made him look aged than he is in Actual but I would not deny he's managing to look still handsome but he's eyes this time Those are reflecting Mine moist like Tears going to flow out of Them anytime soon only pain were in them. I'm feeling so guilty he has been never so upset in this 1 and Half years period I have met him. I could never forgive myself for hurting him like this.
"I need to go now Geet."
It hurts a lot to hear it from Him...Few tears escaped My eyes... I could guess now how he must be feeling when all this conversation started.
"I am leaving but I can never break this relationship Geet. I can't free you from this relationship sorry for that cause for me you will be always the one to hold my heart. But I assure you I will not come in front of you or try changing Your decision And one more thing I will love you always it's not something I could stop doing... I will wait for that moment when you will feel the same and Come back to me. I will come again I promise but only when you are going to want it."
I just blinked in Surprise he still loves me despite everything happened I just Look at Him with longing I just wish to run in his arms but my own mind is not allowing me to do that he's so good to Be with me.. I just stood there silent seeing tears sliding down his eyes. Even my tears are not stopping.
"Can I hold you once? Please One Last time." he uttered so softly. His pleading voice is killing my heart.
Nodding my head in affirmation I carefully Walk towards him, Maan reached me half way cradling my head to His chest...
"I'm going to miss you so much" he whispered so softly almost inaudible but I'd heard him, taking me in his embrace he held onto me so softly it kills me having to do this I don't want to let him go, want to stay always in his comforting arms but I can't be with him, it was eating me up from within to hurt him all time, this life, he seemed like too good to be true and he doesn't deserve a girl like me.
He looked down at me releasing me from his hug, cupping my nape he pulled me close, I clutched onto his shirt at his side. Fearing this closeness might break my resolve.
"I love you" he whispered taking a sharp breath.
His lips came down on mine, our tears mingled and streamed down our cheeks, I could taste the salty tears as he kissed me as if wanting to coax me into giving another chance to our marriage. I just stood numb there don't know what to do this was our last moment together. I just wished this moment never ends and could say in My heart that I love you too Maan a lot...
He parted away with a soft murmur against my mouth.
"Take care of you Geet" He backed away with small steps as I stared right back at him.
"I'll wait for you" He whispered before turning around and walking away, He turned reaching the door knob to look at me one last time with pained eyes...
"I'm sorry" I mouthed but he was already gone closing the door behind him.
"I'm so sorry Maan I could not stop you to myself despite of wanting you with all my being" I slid down to floor bursting into tears hours past but my tears are not stopping, everything is finished now I have nothing to live...
One by one, tear drops fell from my eyes like they were on an assembly line - gather, fall, slide carrying the meaning something I had lost Hope, Faith, Confidence, Pride, Security, Trust, Independence, Joy, Peace, Cause I have just lost everything in my life. I just lost Love of My life... Is this going to end of my life?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I want to forget Everything that had happened, That I had been in Love Cause I don't want to hurt myself and HIM Again...
Is it so easy to forget you???
When all I remember Is only You ...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The sky was low and dark. The thick cloud, grey as the stone they pulled from the quarry, gave the monochromatic world outside a claustrophobic feel. By this time of day the birds should have been singing and the horizon tinged with reds and pinks, oranges sometimes. But everything seems hazy dark this morning she could not bring herself to look at any particular place. This winter morning resembles her life devoid of colors...
She could not stop herself from giving into her heart and cry for Him. She's broken from inside and it's difficult to be away from him. The One Man who had Loved her with his all being. She had shove him away from her.
It's been 2 years that She's living like this but all her life whenever alone most of the times she would cry herself to sleep cause only Sleep was something that makes us forget the condition we are in for time being.
Her past has been never easy and then HE came and things started to change but she was not WORTHY to be love by him... And she? She was Geet an unfortunate girl to not deserve Love...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(2 years before)
Geet's P.O.V
All my life I have been hurt by others and was breaking within all along. Maybe I don't deserve Love that's why all alone now. This loneliness doesn't help to move ahead and cope up with this world. With guilt, Pain I got to know one thing clearly love hurts a lot...
It's just not Beautiful how they always say or show it's beyond just single Feeling of love And I'm experiencing all of it.
I have not had a pleasant past to recall that With pleasure. Childhood didn't go well with me Nor with That person Arav with whom I've spent My 10 months of life I could not survive that Marriage more just than that... So Don't want to think about that phase either. We do suffer in life and it's better to forget them and move on. And I try to do that but failed to get it done...
I have Thought to Establish myself in All means and it took me almost 3 years to come out from shadows of my past and complete my study, find a job to support myself...
Here I am now after 4 years of struggling with things in life finally I have reached a height to survive normally. Where's everything that surround me seems Beautiful. I'm getting what I want still something feel amiss a person maybe to call as my own,to be with someone? I want to start my own family now...
No... not like that I mean adopting a baby cause I'm not ready to get married again. I don't believe in Marriage anymore I can't bring myself to go through everything again I have trust issues now and insecurities within me which troubles me a lot. I'm taking counseling I hope that helps but experience with Men has been awful. I'm really broken from inside to be in any relationship right now. I'm living alone for years and I love this loneliness I don't like any crowd that surrounds me.
But things doesn't go according to us Cause My life has changed from that moment when MAAN he Had Made His presence in it but out of all things I just keep remembering that last moment with him when he had walked out on me.
Love me enough to not drown away
Hold me with you so I don't part away
Be always there with me
You were the one I could ask for ...
...
...
...
But still what was there who was at fault
That we are not together today is it me?
Or It was You Who Have left me to Drown
But I'm The One who's at fault isn't it???
I remember Those each moment spent with him... Those memories are my companion now ...
I was so engrossed in You That
Never Realize one day will ever come when
I'll be parted from You and
From deprived of being Loved By You
Can I get You back Again ????
When we were together my past which was holding me always started to impact our life. Those days I was insecure. My insecurities were eating me from inside I used to Feel guilty to accuse him always. He was taking everything all I know is he's hurt too but he's hiding his Hurt. It will be not pleasurable to get doubted always by the person whom you love so much...
Our vague conversation floating in airs to me when I have seen his ex talking with him we had fight that night...
"I have thought It was only us who exist. You, me and Your Love for me that you always keep saying
It was hurting When I knew
I'm not the only one whom You had in life
And It was worst when I knew
I was not that only one whom you Love"
Ironic huh I have been married before and was involved with someone else and so much things in past still I can't think Maan with anyone else it feels he came to my life and changed everything now I fear to lose him. He did so many things for me. Accepted me in his life showering his love still I was fighting with him for His loyalty though he had said in past he had few casual relationship but today I've heard That girl saying they have loved each other. And for me it's seem too intimate Feeling that you have love someone else and feel same for me?
WHAT is difference between her and me then? He says he loved me only where as I could not bring courage to say him I Feel Same Cause he's my 1st and probably last love ...
"It's nothing like that
What you have heard it's wrong
She Thought we have Loved each other
But I have not Loved Anyone
Except You... You believe me right, Geet?"
I envy him so much he opens up with his Feelings so bluntly always where as I'm a coward always deeply drown in insecurities that I can not even open up with him about my feelings.
Things started to get more complicated between us with time my nature was almost aggressive towards him. Where as he was patient always and at the end of the day I would have always given up to his love, His Care, He always have been so affectionate to me he had given me All love from which I was deprived all my life. With him I was secure always but I was getting selfish he was giving everything to this relationship despite both of us working in busy schedule he never ignored me. He used to take out times to be with me and I could give him nothing in return not even few words of Love cause I think once he gets to know my feelings too he will leave me or I will not have him forever with me. Which is not true Still I feel if I open up he would lose his interest in me. I'm wrong in this I know but I'm ready to be selfish in love and not going to take any chance and I keep thinking why would he love someone like me? A messed up girl where is he's perfect in All sense anyone would want in their companion.
Every single day Same situation repeating maybe I'm going crazy I'm guilty how much I'm hurting him and he's still Ready to love me and comforting me from my own demons. He's way to perfect he doesn't deserve this life I'm not worthy of him it was not right decision to involve him in My life I don't deserve any happiness. I have realized how wrong I have been always hurting him depriving him from happiness which were his right and he was selfless always that's what making it more tough for me we both can't stay without each other nor I think can stay together?
When things started to get out of control I could not stay with him more I can't do this anymore with Him or me. He's suffering with me. Maybe I can never lead a normal happy life or I should just end everything? I decided to leave everything behind me...
I can give away my life if it brings his happiness then living without him is not less than death for me. I know he would be hurt but time will heal everything.. What I didn't know is things were not so easy to do how it seems at first place...
"I'm leaving."
"What do you mean? Have got some work at this time?"
Maan seemed Confuse. I couldn't explain Him my reason he would not understand. So better If I came straight to the point.
"I got to be away from You. I can't lead this Life... You really don't deserve Someone like me."
Quickly I said whatever I have planned for this day but when I'm facing it... it's difficult. He remained stunt for a moment as if that's something difficult to understand what he has heard. Grasping the reality His face gone to pale, his saddened face is so hurting like it's killing me within.
"Geet I.. I love you. Why would you think like that?"
Maan breathed out as if he was having difficulty to breathe. Great he just has to say those words which were always so powerful to make me weak with emotions...
I held my head with both of my hands, I just want to erase his words from my mind and not let out my own feelings to him I was reminding myself constantly he deserves a better life. It hurts a lot to see him upset like this. Why he has to love me out of all the people in the world???
"Let me go please" I pleaded him, things which I have been facing from early life everything was taking a toll on me, I was alone all this time no one made me feel Loved all I've gotten in this life was Pain and now I have someone who meant so much and love me in return despite of everything but I didn't want to hurt him in anyway possible which I was doing to him constantly...
"I can't let you go. Even if I wanted to fulfill everything you want. We are meant to be together. How could you just say something like that?" Maan said stepping closer to me.
"I don't belong here with you, I'm not the right person to be with you." Tears started to roll down from my eyes.
"You need to move on From your Past And For God sake Geet we Love each other, How could you think of leaving me? I can't imagine my existence without you moreover your past doesn't bother me."
Wish it was so easy to not get bothered over my past...
"I have tried giving myself a chance but my fear and insecurities are not letting me to move on. I can only dream of a normal life but its not going to happen with me. It will never happen Maan."
I backed away slowly. I have to assure him it's my past which is reason of my leaving. He would surely not like this weak girl to spend his life with?
"I'm realizing no matter what happens, my past will always hold me back in it's chain my fear and insecurities will not leave me behind. And I can't give you anything except for hurt, Pain."
His eyes never leaving Mine and I just want to run away from here from his sight.
"Why are you speaking like that? I have loved you beyond all these things they really doesn't matter to me you know that."
He walked towards me once again. Where I was backing away from him.
"Stop there and Don't stop me please. I can't do this... anymore please let me go if you have ever Loved me..."
And that did work he react this time.
"If I have Loved? Didn't you ever Love me Geet?" His tone turned serious I averted my eyes from his questioning gaze. Each moment that was passing between us was getting impossible for me to bear. It was suffocating to have this conversation. I want to be out from here and breathe.
"All I ask Is your one glance to me,
So that I can know what I feel for You,
If You reciprocate the same Geet?"
He was making things more difficult for me. I love Him but can't say it to him he will not let me go then. I have to be selfless this time and let go of him for his sake. Having composed myself I look forward straight looking in His grey pairs.
"No...I didn't. I have never Loved You."
He didn't respond but looked at me with eyes depicting his pain, I knew I'd probably hurt him so much that he may hate me now but I couldn't stay. I was lost right now in grief, slowly I was becoming too much attached with him it hurts me to even think of a moment away from Him. Same time hurting him every single day is not something he could take for longer. One day or the other he will get fed up of this Life and leave me so it's better if I leave before things get more serious. Guess love is not enough to survive we need trust in our relationship which I'm unable to do right now. Years of counseling doesn't help when it comes to real relationship.
"You don't need to leave this House It's Yours too. If anyone is leaving then it's me. As I'm the one who's troubling you so much."
His voice is stern now devoid of any emotions. I shook my head he's getting things wrong moreover I can't stay Here it's His house. How can I???
"You are staying here that's final. I don't want to hear a word more in this. At Least I would be assured my Wife is safe away from any trouble. At least give me some respect to not disobey me for I am your so called husband."
He has never spoke to me like that So roughly he has been always soft when it's come to me.
He knows how sensitive I have become after my 1st Marriage. His tone always has been full of assurance, sometimes flirty it had been loving always. Maybe I have ruined that LOVE with my own hands. It feels horrible to think he hates me now it's just not bearable I want to get away from everything, it's getting difficult to breathe in Here. I just looked down releasing a long breathe having nothing to say. We have been married for 8 months now and things are ending this way. Why it has to be so difficult?
I saw Him doing something with his phone he was talking with someone with his back towards me he's leaving but where? Do I want to know that? After he finished his call, he turn towards me and he looks so changed like in this few moments spend between us that made him look aged than he is in Actual but I would not deny he's managing to look still handsome but he's eyes this time Those are reflecting Mine moist like Tears going to flow out of Them anytime soon only pain were in them. I'm feeling so guilty he has been never so upset in this 1 and Half years period I have met him. I could never forgive myself for hurting him like this.
"I need to go now Geet."
It hurts a lot to hear it from Him...Few tears escaped My eyes... I could guess now how he must be feeling when all this conversation started.
"I am leaving but I can never break this relationship Geet. I can't free you from this relationship sorry for that cause for me you will be always the one to hold my heart. But I assure you I will not come in front of you or try changing Your decision And one more thing I will love you always it's not something I could stop doing... I will wait for that moment when you will feel the same and Come back to me. I will come again I promise but only when you are going to want it."
I just blinked in Surprise he still loves me despite everything happened I just Look at Him with longing I just wish to run in his arms but my own mind is not allowing me to do that he's so good to Be with me.. I just stood there silent seeing tears sliding down his eyes. Even my tears are not stopping.
"Can I hold you once? Please One Last time." he uttered so softly. His pleading voice is killing my heart.
Nodding my head in affirmation I carefully Walk towards him, Maan reached me half way cradling my head to His chest...
"I'm going to miss you so much" he whispered so softly almost inaudible but I'd heard him, taking me in his embrace he held onto me so softly it kills me having to do this I don't want to let him go, want to stay always in his comforting arms but I can't be with him, it was eating me up from within to hurt him all time, this life, he seemed like too good to be true and he doesn't deserve a girl like me.
He looked down at me releasing me from his hug, cupping my nape he pulled me close, I clutched onto his shirt at his side. Fearing this closeness might break my resolve.
"I love you" he whispered taking a sharp breath.
His lips came down on mine, our tears mingled and streamed down our cheeks, I could taste the salty tears as he kissed me as if wanting to coax me into giving another chance to our marriage. I just stood numb there don't know what to do this was our last moment together. I just wished this moment never ends and could say in My heart that I love you too Maan a lot...
He parted away with a soft murmur against my mouth.
"Take care of you Geet" He backed away with small steps as I stared right back at him.
"I'll wait for you" He whispered before turning around and walking away, He turned reaching the door knob to look at me one last time with pained eyes...
"I'm sorry" I mouthed but he was already gone closing the door behind him.
"I'm so sorry Maan I could not stop you to myself despite of wanting you with all my being" I slid down to floor bursting into tears hours past but my tears are not stopping, everything is finished now I have nothing to live...
One by one, tear drops fell from my eyes like they were on an assembly line - gather, fall, slide carrying the meaning something I had lost Hope, Faith, Confidence, Pride, Security, Trust, Independence, Joy, Peace, Cause I have just lost everything in my life. I just lost Love of My life... Is this going to end of my life?
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Chapter 2
(Present) California
Maan's P.O.V
How do I start to live a life without the person I can't live without?
That's what I had thought when I have walked out from That apartment which was meant to be our HOME ... I've failed to make her fall in love with me but I could not broke my promise I have given her my words to never force my love on her and it's not necessary whom we love That person would reciprocate that feeling with same amount. But I know She has some feelings but not accepting cause of her own reasons and I could not blame her... Maybe she needs time and I'm going to give her that and wait for her when she would want me back No matter How much Time she takes...
She needs space and If it makes her happy to be away from me for Time being I'm satisfied with the fact she's happy. Cause she purely deserve that... Her life was difficult in past and I want to make her present and future Beautiful with my love not suffocate instead.
Love is a deep emotion. Some think it is about caring for someone, some think it is pure obsession about someone, some think its selfish and you must get everything what you want from the person. But the truth is that, true love is the most selfless emotion of all. In true love, you don't expect anything, you don't want anything, you are free of all kinds of obsession, and you just want the person to be happy with their life. True love is indeed selfless and doesn't demand anything from the person you love. I feel same that is why I've let her go...
And those one and half year I've spent with her was the best time of my life and enough for me to spend this life with those memories. Still this heart is so greedy that wants to be with her till both of our last breath. If it was in my control I would have keep her in front of my eyes always and it's difficult to live without her but I've not even tried to know her whereabouts in this two years cause my resolve will be weak then to be away from her and thinking that, I have left her on her own.
I don't know if it was right staying aloof from her like that or wrong? I just keep counting days and think How long I'm going to wait more and not look for her?
Staying away from her is the worst thing I am experiencing but I have nothing to do but wait for her. She has become the reason of my life. Despite of assuring her I will not want her love in return I have realized my heart was against it... I'm craving for her love. But guess that's not in my Fate...
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(India)
Roshni walked into the apartment to smell the amazing aroma of Biryani. Discarding her coat in couch hastily she made her way to kitchen. After this exhausting day she definitely needs some food but Biryani !!! The thought itself is amazing. She's so glad Geet is staying over the week here and honestly her friend is amazing when it comes to cook Delicious foods. She entered in kitchen to smell more tempting aroma.
"Geet Honey, What you are cooking?"
Roshni asked trying to act nonchalant. Geet rolled her eyes seeing her antics.
"As If you don't have any idea darling. Okay. I'm going to have all of it on my own." Geet turned around to look at her smirking.
Roshni gasped "You... How could you?"
"Ohh Rosh can you stop all this I'm not feeling good. Can you go freshen up and we have food."
Geet said serving in plate. Roshni walked closer to her concerned.
"Hey. What happened? You are okay?"
She asked now holding those served plates helping Geet around. Geet shook her head saying it to be just exhaustion. But she knew her better to know what the matter is After all she's just not her friend earlier she was her counselor for like 3 years it's still her profession. But not counseling Geet anymore like that.
Geet stopped after few months Maan had left cause she believe there's nothing more left to get it fixed cause everything is ruined for good to get it back. Well Roshni thinks otherwise she believes Everything will fall in place just given one chance. Still They talk now and then to get her confident back to bring Maan again. But this adamant Girl is in denial mode always.
After Done with dinner they both sat together to catch up with today's happening at both of their side. Roshni was thinking about Their earlier conversation and intervened Geet in her talk.
"What's bothering you Geet. Tell me You can say it to me right? Were You crying Again? Why can't you forget everything and move ahead?"
She asked sounding little defeated. She tried so many times to make her understand, to see things beyond her past lost. But Geet is still stuck with her loss.
Tears started to roll down her eyes, Geet could not stop no matter how many times she makes herself strong, she becomes weak and give up on her own self. Roshni hugged her consoling. With Time her cries subsided.
"Shh... It's okay. Don't cry everything will be okay. Trust me you just try forgetting everything."
Geet came out from her embrace and looked at Roshni.
"It's not easy. Not at all. Must be easy for you as You handle cases like this more often. But It's difficult to do for me."
"I know Geet. I know it's not easy plus I know how much you have gone through. You are just not any other case for me but a friend of mine too right? I just want your wellbeing. But staying upset like this or blaming yourself always not gonna help."
Roshni tried convincing Geet.
"I have Hurt him so badly how could I not blame myself Rosh? I keep doing mistakes hurting him All the time. I don't deserve Him"
Roshni held her hand bringing them to her lap and said.
"Accept yourself and your mistakes. Say to yourself that you accept your mistakes and you have learned from them. No matter how wrong it was, it's already done and the only way you can take control of it is to not repeat it...As flawed as you may be, you must accept yourself, flaws and all, if you are to make progress in your life. Remember that you are not a bad person. You can do something wrong while still being a good person."
Geet thought over what Roshni try making her understand All the time and tried flushing her own thoughts out from head, to not be failure in life she had covered a long way in this two years. After Maan left she was badly depressed all alone she didn't thought it would be so difficult without Him she almost died then. In All this Roshni helped a lot it's cause of her that she's living Again though they didn't go for literal counseling but now and then small talk with her seem to help. But Geet think Maan will be happy without her not with her still Roshni is hell bent on making her believe opposite. She would not deny she wants him in her life too. Wish things were easy between them not like this.
Now they were deprived from their own love... And what happened in past after he left she's more scared he would not forgive her. And she believes her love is happy being away from her and she had accepted this as reality.
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(Past)
AGE : Geet 22, Maan 27.
There were some feast going on for which a party was held and from many companies people were invited Geet was One of them. She's been working for like 1 year now though parties were normal thing for people but she was attending them for namesake even today coming in this Party was not much good decision she thought she's getting bore. Founding nothing interesting cursing Roshni in her mind to convince her to come. To go out meet people make friends blah blah...
Well she could not make any friends it was always Rosh for her. She was taking counseling for more than one year Now and in this time both have come closer their Bonding was Special. And for others it's big no... she doesn't want anyone in her life it's better if they stay away from her. With difficulty she has started living her life normally and is enjoying this loneliness so it's better without any intervention of course. But she's feeling alone here Which she likes but not here between this crowd it's uneasy.
One clicking sound break her thoughts Geet looked ahead that was when her eyes fell on the stranger who stood only a few feet away. The First thing she noticed was Grey eyes and important thing which she realized Moment later was he has taken her picture maybe shrugging her thoughts assuming why he would do that for no reason? Where as He stared straight at her, a small smirk on his face and was having a camera in his hand of course.
When their eyes locked it felt like something changed at that instant, she felt the intense burning gaze tearing into her making Geet shiver all of a sudden, He's stare was something Like he was trying to read her, surprised to see her or happy? She looked away quickly keeping her eyes ahead but the effect had not left yet. His aura is seeming strong, dark and powerful. And Geet was not getting good vibes at all maybe it was bad idea to attend this party.
She was quite getting uncomfortable under his gaze. It was so evident that He's looking at her. That Jerk... Another click and this time it did not take a second for her to realize that owner of those grey eyes is taking her pictures... Her !!! How dare he?? Geet grabbed her shawl sliding it around her shoulders and turned, exactly then he clicked another one audacity of this Man he seriously need some lesson.
"You know You should have smile I would have got my perfect click" said The Stranger surprising Geet. Here she's planning to teach him lesson and he's hell bent on irritating her further.
"Excuse me even if I smile or not that's nothing you should be concerned for. And how dare you taking my pictures without permission? That's bad manners you should not do that."
Geet tried to act confident as much as possible But her inner side was scared Men are not something to messed up with ... Better away from them.
"Is it so?" He arched his brow.
"What will you do now? Complain to your parents or do something?" He said suggestively and then chuckled at his own remark. Geet was stunned and was wondering what she would say now and mention of her parents is not something pleasant for her. He seems to notice her going silent so thought to clear things.
"Well...I'm a Photograph by profession you could say it's my passion too. I like to capture nature and other things in my frame not much interested taking pics of people though and you were quite attracting yourself that I've this urge to capture you. Unless you see I'm not going around all people and clicking their picture."
Maan finished his saying giving a wink to Geet. He's explaining things to her as if she's interested but Geet was shocked at his blunt reply this Man is dangerous 1st Meeting and he's saying all this things to her??? Attracting? Geet thought it's right Stranger means danger she should get away from all this. She turned walking forward saying nothing when That danger was also following her hurriedly wait she means stranger ...
"Hey...Miss You didn't even said your name; Where do you think you are going? Okay Are you free for sometime or anything? I want to know you more or we can have a Photography session with you?"
He said while walking along with her now. Geet Stopped He is crossing limits now following her? Seriously?
"Do you think I'm a model or some object for you to have photography session?" Came from Geet Curt reply. He's making her angry.
"No, not like that But as I said before I am not some random photographer to clicking around pics of everyone. I'm into natural photography but you are seeming exception to me or you can say natural beauty resembles in you, you know I haven't click any of my girlfriends Pic either in my camera Maybe they were not worthy but you are special and different."
He said little teasingly she looked aside averting her eyes from his gaze. Gosh Geet wouldn't deny he seems totally adorable and she is not much used to see a guy behaving like this with her. He's interesting but Not for her. He's like totally changed person now he was seeming intimidating at first now all different.
He's right She's different but Special !!! To cheesy line to get in her good books. She's not for everyone and she knows it people find her different and strange and she likes to be a forbidden thing for the world. He spoke again breaking her thoughts.
"Well let's come straight to the point I am Maan...Maan Khurana. Here in this city for some venture for now and very much interested in you. Now tell me about you."
Maan said so causally and urged her but she's not someone fool he's assuming to give away her information to this dangerous creature.
"Why would I tell you anything about me Mr.Khurana?"
She stated sweetly battling her lashes and then suddenly getting straight to the point.
"I'm not interested in you nor staying a moment more in this Party. And if you don't stop following me consequences will not be good."
She stated Almost angrily looking straight at Him. You have to be confident and strong in your way she knows that very clearly now unless world is really a dangerous harmful place for fragile ones.
"Woah woman easy and Mr.Khurana??? It's Maan for you sweetheart and I've not catch your name yet. At least say your name please."
He said softly offering a sweet smile to her. Heights of foolishness that she was finding him Cute but He looks more good while smiling she felt like giving into Him. Geet shook her head to not go deep in his thoughts.
"Geet..." She said softly looking other side now. What's harm in telling name? She thought to herself.
"Geet... You have a beautiful name but You are More Beautiful."
Hearing his reply Geet rolled her eyes not again this Man is not leaving a chance to flirt with her. Well she's gonna avoid his all remarks and move ahead no matter how handsome and Interesting he is cause Men are complicated not to forget dangerous for her.
Geet now walked straight with intention of leaving this party at any cost. But Stopped Few steps away from Maan hearing his loud voice again.
"Geet...Even if you are going for now. I'm not gonna leave your sight Unless you get agreed to spend time with me and help me to know you more. I can go on my stalker mood too."
He stated with that smug look which is enough to melt woman's heart. Gosh he's embarrassing her people were looking towards them now so she thought to leave not Before saying.
"Sure. Dream on..." Came her last reply for that night as she left that party praying to never meet that dangerous thing again.
(Maan P.O.V)
She left giving me reason to smile for forever. Confused? Let me introduce myself to you guys. As I have mentioned before about my work I'm a professional photographer I've always loved capturing Beautiful soulful things when time will pass only this would be memories to Cherish. I have just one brother, parents have thought the sooner we leave this two alone in this world the better cause we two brother had been totally spoiled brat, mischievous you may say. My parents They had a car accident and after that we were taken care by our maternal Uncle Who lived in California so basically we live there. One thing about me I was very joyous person my close ones used to say I can't sit for a second Calm there's no patience in me I agree with that but people Changes and I have finally gotten my reason to change my impatient nature.
I never believed in love at first sight, but all it took, was one look, one moment and my world stopped. All I could see was her. All I could feel was her around me. That moment is something I will never forget. It felt like I have been waiting my entire life for that moment to meet someone who evokes so many emotions in me. As if it was meant to happen. Like there was nothing more correct than this moment that I was living now that finally I got to meet her today. Totally unexpected meeting at party. Now I will make sure to never lose her again. I love her so much I can do anything to get her. Yet I know nothing about her Except the truth of her battered soul and her name Geet ...
Even her name is enough to make me smile she's nothing now like I have Saw her first time except those eyes which is still so distant and hiding her Pain from this world. I keep visiting India as I have few relatives here too plus my work demands traveling.
Few years before I have seen her in a Park sitting alone crying for what I don't know. I was playing with kids there and our ball Happened to be near her when I reached and call for her she just turned and my life changed from that moment... Her eyes were swollen red from crying, bruised skin shawl wrapped around her, hairs disheveled she was totally in messed up condition but still so innocent and pure that's what I could thought at that moment. Her eyes so beautiful yet tears streaming down for those painful things she must have gone through. I had felt so Bad to see her like that an affection was working to wipe Every drop of tears from her eyes and protect her from everything which has hurt her so much. I can't put it in words how I have felt seeing her like that...
And then I could not stop my heart from falling for this battered soul... People fell for Beauty and don't know what more but I have fallen for my broken innocent Angel. But unfortunately while I was busy in grasping my emotions for her she was already gone I have searched that park no clue where she vanished suddenly but I didn't have anything to search for her no name, picture, addressed nothing but she seems to be permanent resident in my heart. And today here I'm meeting her, she has changed a lot a bit different but Beautiful. I could not believe it was actually her I've find her Finally where I have lost my hope Long ago but I was waiting for this moment no doubt.
When I happened to glance accidentally towards her today while she was lost in thoughts I have found her familiar but was getting hard time recalling Who she is actually. Not my fault I'm meeting her after years and the picture of her which I have in my mind that's totally different from now. No one can think that this two Meeting I have with this person is one but I have to recognize her of course she is in my mind for years now. I could not miss this opportunity to not capture her what if she get vanish again? Well taking one picture was not enough and then what followed onwards on party all of you guys know right?
This was not it... after she left I have inquired about her giving excuse as I'm her Long lost friend and it did work now waiting for this night to pass so that I can meet Geet... I'm feeling excited and looking forward to meet her again.
Well once I get hold of her this time I'm not leaving her ever. I just want to be with her all my life. My happiness resides in her. And I will be there with her always not going to leave her alone for lifetime.
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see below
(Present) California
Maan's P.O.V
How do I start to live a life without the person I can't live without?
That's what I had thought when I have walked out from That apartment which was meant to be our HOME ... I've failed to make her fall in love with me but I could not broke my promise I have given her my words to never force my love on her and it's not necessary whom we love That person would reciprocate that feeling with same amount. But I know She has some feelings but not accepting cause of her own reasons and I could not blame her... Maybe she needs time and I'm going to give her that and wait for her when she would want me back No matter How much Time she takes...
She needs space and If it makes her happy to be away from me for Time being I'm satisfied with the fact she's happy. Cause she purely deserve that... Her life was difficult in past and I want to make her present and future Beautiful with my love not suffocate instead.
Love is a deep emotion. Some think it is about caring for someone, some think it is pure obsession about someone, some think its selfish and you must get everything what you want from the person. But the truth is that, true love is the most selfless emotion of all. In true love, you don't expect anything, you don't want anything, you are free of all kinds of obsession, and you just want the person to be happy with their life. True love is indeed selfless and doesn't demand anything from the person you love. I feel same that is why I've let her go...
And those one and half year I've spent with her was the best time of my life and enough for me to spend this life with those memories. Still this heart is so greedy that wants to be with her till both of our last breath. If it was in my control I would have keep her in front of my eyes always and it's difficult to live without her but I've not even tried to know her whereabouts in this two years cause my resolve will be weak then to be away from her and thinking that, I have left her on her own.
I don't know if it was right staying aloof from her like that or wrong? I just keep counting days and think How long I'm going to wait more and not look for her?
Staying away from her is the worst thing I am experiencing but I have nothing to do but wait for her. She has become the reason of my life. Despite of assuring her I will not want her love in return I have realized my heart was against it... I'm craving for her love. But guess that's not in my Fate...
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(India)
Roshni walked into the apartment to smell the amazing aroma of Biryani. Discarding her coat in couch hastily she made her way to kitchen. After this exhausting day she definitely needs some food but Biryani !!! The thought itself is amazing. She's so glad Geet is staying over the week here and honestly her friend is amazing when it comes to cook Delicious foods. She entered in kitchen to smell more tempting aroma.
"Geet Honey, What you are cooking?"
Roshni asked trying to act nonchalant. Geet rolled her eyes seeing her antics.
"As If you don't have any idea darling. Okay. I'm going to have all of it on my own." Geet turned around to look at her smirking.
Roshni gasped "You... How could you?"
"Ohh Rosh can you stop all this I'm not feeling good. Can you go freshen up and we have food."
Geet said serving in plate. Roshni walked closer to her concerned.
"Hey. What happened? You are okay?"
She asked now holding those served plates helping Geet around. Geet shook her head saying it to be just exhaustion. But she knew her better to know what the matter is After all she's just not her friend earlier she was her counselor for like 3 years it's still her profession. But not counseling Geet anymore like that.
Geet stopped after few months Maan had left cause she believe there's nothing more left to get it fixed cause everything is ruined for good to get it back. Well Roshni thinks otherwise she believes Everything will fall in place just given one chance. Still They talk now and then to get her confident back to bring Maan again. But this adamant Girl is in denial mode always.
After Done with dinner they both sat together to catch up with today's happening at both of their side. Roshni was thinking about Their earlier conversation and intervened Geet in her talk.
"What's bothering you Geet. Tell me You can say it to me right? Were You crying Again? Why can't you forget everything and move ahead?"
She asked sounding little defeated. She tried so many times to make her understand, to see things beyond her past lost. But Geet is still stuck with her loss.
Tears started to roll down her eyes, Geet could not stop no matter how many times she makes herself strong, she becomes weak and give up on her own self. Roshni hugged her consoling. With Time her cries subsided.
"Shh... It's okay. Don't cry everything will be okay. Trust me you just try forgetting everything."
Geet came out from her embrace and looked at Roshni.
"It's not easy. Not at all. Must be easy for you as You handle cases like this more often. But It's difficult to do for me."
"I know Geet. I know it's not easy plus I know how much you have gone through. You are just not any other case for me but a friend of mine too right? I just want your wellbeing. But staying upset like this or blaming yourself always not gonna help."
Roshni tried convincing Geet.
"I have Hurt him so badly how could I not blame myself Rosh? I keep doing mistakes hurting him All the time. I don't deserve Him"
Roshni held her hand bringing them to her lap and said.
"Accept yourself and your mistakes. Say to yourself that you accept your mistakes and you have learned from them. No matter how wrong it was, it's already done and the only way you can take control of it is to not repeat it...As flawed as you may be, you must accept yourself, flaws and all, if you are to make progress in your life. Remember that you are not a bad person. You can do something wrong while still being a good person."
Geet thought over what Roshni try making her understand All the time and tried flushing her own thoughts out from head, to not be failure in life she had covered a long way in this two years. After Maan left she was badly depressed all alone she didn't thought it would be so difficult without Him she almost died then. In All this Roshni helped a lot it's cause of her that she's living Again though they didn't go for literal counseling but now and then small talk with her seem to help. But Geet think Maan will be happy without her not with her still Roshni is hell bent on making her believe opposite. She would not deny she wants him in her life too. Wish things were easy between them not like this.
Now they were deprived from their own love... And what happened in past after he left she's more scared he would not forgive her. And she believes her love is happy being away from her and she had accepted this as reality.
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(Past)
AGE : Geet 22, Maan 27.
There were some feast going on for which a party was held and from many companies people were invited Geet was One of them. She's been working for like 1 year now though parties were normal thing for people but she was attending them for namesake even today coming in this Party was not much good decision she thought she's getting bore. Founding nothing interesting cursing Roshni in her mind to convince her to come. To go out meet people make friends blah blah...
Well she could not make any friends it was always Rosh for her. She was taking counseling for more than one year Now and in this time both have come closer their Bonding was Special. And for others it's big no... she doesn't want anyone in her life it's better if they stay away from her. With difficulty she has started living her life normally and is enjoying this loneliness so it's better without any intervention of course. But she's feeling alone here Which she likes but not here between this crowd it's uneasy.
One clicking sound break her thoughts Geet looked ahead that was when her eyes fell on the stranger who stood only a few feet away. The First thing she noticed was Grey eyes and important thing which she realized Moment later was he has taken her picture maybe shrugging her thoughts assuming why he would do that for no reason? Where as He stared straight at her, a small smirk on his face and was having a camera in his hand of course.
When their eyes locked it felt like something changed at that instant, she felt the intense burning gaze tearing into her making Geet shiver all of a sudden, He's stare was something Like he was trying to read her, surprised to see her or happy? She looked away quickly keeping her eyes ahead but the effect had not left yet. His aura is seeming strong, dark and powerful. And Geet was not getting good vibes at all maybe it was bad idea to attend this party.
She was quite getting uncomfortable under his gaze. It was so evident that He's looking at her. That Jerk... Another click and this time it did not take a second for her to realize that owner of those grey eyes is taking her pictures... Her !!! How dare he?? Geet grabbed her shawl sliding it around her shoulders and turned, exactly then he clicked another one audacity of this Man he seriously need some lesson.
"You know You should have smile I would have got my perfect click" said The Stranger surprising Geet. Here she's planning to teach him lesson and he's hell bent on irritating her further.
"Excuse me even if I smile or not that's nothing you should be concerned for. And how dare you taking my pictures without permission? That's bad manners you should not do that."
Geet tried to act confident as much as possible But her inner side was scared Men are not something to messed up with ... Better away from them.
"Is it so?" He arched his brow.
"What will you do now? Complain to your parents or do something?" He said suggestively and then chuckled at his own remark. Geet was stunned and was wondering what she would say now and mention of her parents is not something pleasant for her. He seems to notice her going silent so thought to clear things.
"Well...I'm a Photograph by profession you could say it's my passion too. I like to capture nature and other things in my frame not much interested taking pics of people though and you were quite attracting yourself that I've this urge to capture you. Unless you see I'm not going around all people and clicking their picture."
Maan finished his saying giving a wink to Geet. He's explaining things to her as if she's interested but Geet was shocked at his blunt reply this Man is dangerous 1st Meeting and he's saying all this things to her??? Attracting? Geet thought it's right Stranger means danger she should get away from all this. She turned walking forward saying nothing when That danger was also following her hurriedly wait she means stranger ...
"Hey...Miss You didn't even said your name; Where do you think you are going? Okay Are you free for sometime or anything? I want to know you more or we can have a Photography session with you?"
He said while walking along with her now. Geet Stopped He is crossing limits now following her? Seriously?
"Do you think I'm a model or some object for you to have photography session?" Came from Geet Curt reply. He's making her angry.
"No, not like that But as I said before I am not some random photographer to clicking around pics of everyone. I'm into natural photography but you are seeming exception to me or you can say natural beauty resembles in you, you know I haven't click any of my girlfriends Pic either in my camera Maybe they were not worthy but you are special and different."
He said little teasingly she looked aside averting her eyes from his gaze. Gosh Geet wouldn't deny he seems totally adorable and she is not much used to see a guy behaving like this with her. He's interesting but Not for her. He's like totally changed person now he was seeming intimidating at first now all different.
He's right She's different but Special !!! To cheesy line to get in her good books. She's not for everyone and she knows it people find her different and strange and she likes to be a forbidden thing for the world. He spoke again breaking her thoughts.
"Well let's come straight to the point I am Maan...Maan Khurana. Here in this city for some venture for now and very much interested in you. Now tell me about you."
Maan said so causally and urged her but she's not someone fool he's assuming to give away her information to this dangerous creature.
"Why would I tell you anything about me Mr.Khurana?"
She stated sweetly battling her lashes and then suddenly getting straight to the point.
"I'm not interested in you nor staying a moment more in this Party. And if you don't stop following me consequences will not be good."
She stated Almost angrily looking straight at Him. You have to be confident and strong in your way she knows that very clearly now unless world is really a dangerous harmful place for fragile ones.
"Woah woman easy and Mr.Khurana??? It's Maan for you sweetheart and I've not catch your name yet. At least say your name please."
He said softly offering a sweet smile to her. Heights of foolishness that she was finding him Cute but He looks more good while smiling she felt like giving into Him. Geet shook her head to not go deep in his thoughts.
"Geet..." She said softly looking other side now. What's harm in telling name? She thought to herself.
"Geet... You have a beautiful name but You are More Beautiful."
Hearing his reply Geet rolled her eyes not again this Man is not leaving a chance to flirt with her. Well she's gonna avoid his all remarks and move ahead no matter how handsome and Interesting he is cause Men are complicated not to forget dangerous for her.
Geet now walked straight with intention of leaving this party at any cost. But Stopped Few steps away from Maan hearing his loud voice again.
"Geet...Even if you are going for now. I'm not gonna leave your sight Unless you get agreed to spend time with me and help me to know you more. I can go on my stalker mood too."
He stated with that smug look which is enough to melt woman's heart. Gosh he's embarrassing her people were looking towards them now so she thought to leave not Before saying.
"Sure. Dream on..." Came her last reply for that night as she left that party praying to never meet that dangerous thing again.
(Maan P.O.V)
She left giving me reason to smile for forever. Confused? Let me introduce myself to you guys. As I have mentioned before about my work I'm a professional photographer I've always loved capturing Beautiful soulful things when time will pass only this would be memories to Cherish. I have just one brother, parents have thought the sooner we leave this two alone in this world the better cause we two brother had been totally spoiled brat, mischievous you may say. My parents They had a car accident and after that we were taken care by our maternal Uncle Who lived in California so basically we live there. One thing about me I was very joyous person my close ones used to say I can't sit for a second Calm there's no patience in me I agree with that but people Changes and I have finally gotten my reason to change my impatient nature.
I never believed in love at first sight, but all it took, was one look, one moment and my world stopped. All I could see was her. All I could feel was her around me. That moment is something I will never forget. It felt like I have been waiting my entire life for that moment to meet someone who evokes so many emotions in me. As if it was meant to happen. Like there was nothing more correct than this moment that I was living now that finally I got to meet her today. Totally unexpected meeting at party. Now I will make sure to never lose her again. I love her so much I can do anything to get her. Yet I know nothing about her Except the truth of her battered soul and her name Geet ...
Even her name is enough to make me smile she's nothing now like I have Saw her first time except those eyes which is still so distant and hiding her Pain from this world. I keep visiting India as I have few relatives here too plus my work demands traveling.
Few years before I have seen her in a Park sitting alone crying for what I don't know. I was playing with kids there and our ball Happened to be near her when I reached and call for her she just turned and my life changed from that moment... Her eyes were swollen red from crying, bruised skin shawl wrapped around her, hairs disheveled she was totally in messed up condition but still so innocent and pure that's what I could thought at that moment. Her eyes so beautiful yet tears streaming down for those painful things she must have gone through. I had felt so Bad to see her like that an affection was working to wipe Every drop of tears from her eyes and protect her from everything which has hurt her so much. I can't put it in words how I have felt seeing her like that...
And then I could not stop my heart from falling for this battered soul... People fell for Beauty and don't know what more but I have fallen for my broken innocent Angel. But unfortunately while I was busy in grasping my emotions for her she was already gone I have searched that park no clue where she vanished suddenly but I didn't have anything to search for her no name, picture, addressed nothing but she seems to be permanent resident in my heart. And today here I'm meeting her, she has changed a lot a bit different but Beautiful. I could not believe it was actually her I've find her Finally where I have lost my hope Long ago but I was waiting for this moment no doubt.
When I happened to glance accidentally towards her today while she was lost in thoughts I have found her familiar but was getting hard time recalling Who she is actually. Not my fault I'm meeting her after years and the picture of her which I have in my mind that's totally different from now. No one can think that this two Meeting I have with this person is one but I have to recognize her of course she is in my mind for years now. I could not miss this opportunity to not capture her what if she get vanish again? Well taking one picture was not enough and then what followed onwards on party all of you guys know right?
This was not it... after she left I have inquired about her giving excuse as I'm her Long lost friend and it did work now waiting for this night to pass so that I can meet Geet... I'm feeling excited and looking forward to meet her again.
Well once I get hold of her this time I'm not leaving her ever. I just want to be with her all my life. My happiness resides in her. And I will be there with her always not going to leave her alone for lifetime.
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