BIG shoutout to Surbhi Chandna for the aces in the last 2 episodes !! ... Her poignant agony is so touching and tearjerking, you can't help but feel for her.
These two are so subtly in love, you feel like shaking them.
She was so terrified seeing him lie there like that, looking lifeless, she freaked out. The icon of strength and invincibility in her life, Shivaay Singh Oberoi, was unconscious and looked dead, to her. She toiled, scraped and scratched herself getting him to safety, ran out for his meds, got help from Rudra, and did the best she could. When nothing looked up, she begged him to come back.
You promised..
You promised you wouldn't leave me.
I love you !
You can't leave me like this!
You said you wouldn't die and leave me like everyone else!!
Wake up! Please Shivaay!
I will die without you...
And when he woke up , she gazed at him in wonder, at how suddenly he was all back and alright. And there she had thought she had seen the end of the world. She had gone to the depths of fear and insecurity, and was startled at her own revelations.
I was going to die, if he had gone.
Now he's back, what do I do?
How do I go back to how I was before?
I can't un-Love him.
She sat staring at him, taking her eyes fill of the sight of him hale and healthy. Driving as usual, joking, teasing. And she just couldn't go back to normal. What is wrong with me?
Raita phail gaya...
The moment she is alone she recalls her own revelations, word for word, cringing and what she had done. She had gone and fallen in love with Shivaay Singh Oberoi. Something she had never intended or wanted to do.
Like when you are best friends with someone, and you went and fell in love with him. And he's being his usual chummy and warm, and you feel pain, because you know for him, its pure friendship; while you feel love. Every little thing he does makes a huge difference to you, affects you, while he remains friendly and romantically impersonal. Pure torture, really.
He wants to hug you or touch your hair or your cheek, or tease you, just like that, and you feel its too much. You try to put a distance, and he does not understand why, and even feels hurt that you are pulling away.
"Why pull away?" Sahil innocently tells her. "Just go and tell him, I love you so so so much..! Just try and see!" What is there to lose?
It's simple , that advice, but extremely hard to the recipient.
My heart broke when she deemed herself unworthy of Love, at all. If she loves, she must prepare for them to leave her. Love is a weakness, a pain she is afraid of. Sahil sees it as an easy natural thing, but for her it's a life changing event. To put her heart in someone else's hand, to trust them to take care of it.
She needs a strong loyal person to love, sorry, but Shivaay is not that person right now. He's too caught up in his family intrigues. She's there and around, and he's grown attached. When push comes to shove, and he has to choose, he will choose his family.
As must Annika too.