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Posted: 5 years ago
Me too miss sosy badly...Unhappy
I just want to get a balance for our neel n suv so that they can also be happy as ,Ranjan!!![he is the best example of someone who got happiness for the second time when he was thinking there will not be one...]
Posted: 5 years ago
Sonal when one is insecure... thinking I dont deserve happiness ...then one  finds all reasons and explanations to evade matters...avoid meeting people,  avoid responding to their messages and mails,  do not respond to their suggestions and invitations their compliments too folks ignore leave alone censure. When she is so insecure and when Neel himself is confused what he wants out his attraction ...is it a satiation of his physical cravings alone is the question on Suvis mind...is she being used or her vulnerability being exploited. Remember it is a while shes experienced genuine care affection love and compassion. Insecurity is a crazy thing.
Posted: 5 years ago
Kabhi nah kabhi ha tum dono ki problem kya hai
Phele suvi was sprinting away from Neel 
Then Neel starting walking away 

Now Neel wants to start again.when she wants to talk
he doesn't now he wants to talk but she doesn't 
Hadd hai yaar
Dono ka damage kharab hoga.u know mad in love literally 
Dono confused .inki confusion se hum confused hai ki yeh
dono ka hoga kya
I hope there is someone more mature and could play cupid for them . expectations toh Neel ki family say hai as suvi is kind of orphan
Kuch updates ki bahar milne ka chance hai kya nisha
Ya pair rukhi sukhi se guzara karna pade ga
Posted: 5 years ago
Encounters official and encounters unofficial drove then together to be in the company of each other . The fleeting flirtation and mutual concerns orchestrating into late night texting, calls which then escalated to a few 'drive me crazy' hot kisses and fondling.
But something about it doesn't feel right for suvi as she says mere liye sahi nahi hai but each time she has tried to extricate herself, he has seduced her back in with both their mutual physical attraction and care giving actions when she has needed them the most. While she definitely wants more, she has at times fine with the flow.
And Neel is unsure of what he wants himself... He gets upset if someone suggests him to take care of his carnal desires, has suvi occupying his mind and yet wants to stay matriied to his wife .
Yes suv cannot force marriage in to his picture, but there's no point of return in emotional and physical entanglement without commitment or atleast a promise of commitment that's sincere and if he is going to blow hot and cold on that then he should let her be and not try reducing the distance when he cannot help himself with his wild physical attraction that he feels for her.

With conflicting desires driving them crazy, what's the tipping / breaking point . Something surely has got to give.
Posted: 5 years ago
Originally posted by moonwearer


<font size="4">Sonal when one is insecure... thinking I dont deserve happiness ...then one finds all reasons and explanations to evade matters...avoid meeting people, avoid responding to their messages and mails, do not respond to their suggestions and invitations their compliments too folks ignore leave alone censure. When she is so insecure and when Neel himself is confused what he wants out his attraction ...is it a satiation of his physical cravings alone is the question on Suvis mind...is she being used or her vulnerability being exploited. Remember it is a while shes experienced genuine care affection love and compassion. Insecurity is a crazy thing.</font>


So true...
She is insecure and her circumstances made her like this, not her fault
Both r unsure of there feelings
They will need some really good push up to make them feel
Posted: 5 years ago
That is what i think will be the purpose of the Misra Visit like O thats what any person that watches their struggle with compassion wishes for them.
I do not think Tai and her oldies gang have a heart,
Posted: 5 years ago
How often do we end up desiring the BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. I was thinking how we often hv a need for multiple wants/ desires that most times are incompatible with one another. To fulfill one desire means losing out on the other.
What's even worse sometimes is we make a decision that results in fulfilling neither of that want.

Conflicting desires...thats kind of a self sabotage isn't it? To only think of now when something abt isn't feeling fully right.
Posted: 5 years ago
Both ends of a road...

She didnt think it was appropriate  for just her to be taking her 5 year old to her boss's house when the other direct reports were just going to show up by themselves
Not even with their spouses, as it was a "week night-meet the boss's inlaws" dinner not a social gala of any sort
She texted him around 7 ish after picking up Adhya on Wed evening, that she will be unable to make it


She looked at tickets to Nasik again to book for a summer trip
She was doing well financially, being frugal with how she handled money
She could afford to take Aadhya by air to Nasik
She spoke to Tai about her plan, Tai insisted she wanted to go too and that "she will think about returning to Delhi"

"I dont have the money for paying three air tickets" "U can come by train if you like" "Plus you have nobody in Nasik, why dont you go to Aurangabad or Latur?" Suvi demanded

Tai was on a mission to torture the living hell out of her she feared

"Latur will be very hot in summer" Tai argued

"Nasik is not in Kashmir" Suvi informed her

Suvi quietly booked tix for her and her daughter, made fish after many days, ate in the balcony as it drizzled a bit  soaking in the scent of rain with her fave fish and rice and went to bed at 10
She had seen Neel in meetings on Monday and Tuesday, there were people from Mumbai visiting, to talk about the break up of Political vs Commercial

Neel was still negotiating a good proposition for himself
He was basically sent from Mumbai as "the HEAD OF ALL OF DELHI"
He wasnt about to be a "Head of a PORTION of Delhi"

She was unable to sleep she went online and looked at cars, the EMI was ridiculously high for the nicer ones

The topic she was trying to avoid thinking about... Neel... she finally began thinking about it when she was nicely settled into bed
After a shower and hair oil scalp massage

Her heart skipped a beat at being kissed like that with no notice

"I had a lousy week Suvechha" he had said
Like she OWED him a kiss

Nobody acted like she owed anything to them... on the personal front

Except Tai... who SHE didnt want to owe anything

Aadhya was kind and considerate and not tantrumy

She never demanded anything, Aai would expect her to call everyday, Baba would expect many things from Mumbai when she went home
Varsha would expect her to be available to go do things with her

Now she lived a life devoid of expectations
Even Mrs Singh from playschool didnt call to check if she didnt show up with Aadhya some day

Like she was happy caring for one less 5 year old

Aadhya's school would call... she nodded... at the new discovery
Yeah!! They would expect

After making a list of who all expected from her
She went back to savoring his kiss
The way he threw the towel on her shoulder and reached for it proprietorially when Gurpreet walked in
Like they were a "couple"

Rutwik  was self sufficient... he had to be... otherwise he would be busted.
He appeared independent, not even waking her for chai in the mornings, like Baba woke Aai

And then Neel asked for chai "Chai bana leti hain aap?"

She whispered those words trying to make it sound very UP

He texted her around midnight
By she was fast asleep

When she woke Thursday morning she saw his text

"I am sending a 1:1 for Outlook" he said

"Thanks" she said not worrying about it

Around 2:30, she took her posterboard layouts for the Paakh campaign and her laptop and went to his room

"Did u have a good evening?" he asked, slowly letting his gaze slide down the buttery smooth form in a striped flowing maxi skirt and a sleeveless black blouse
She nodded smiling

Her hair was the darkest of black he had ever seen and her eyes
She was always shiny and supple, he wondered if she would smell of some oil if he inhaled her cleft
Away from Nupur and away from Nupur's parents he sensed the intense physical attraction
He didnt know why
He had assumed she would come

Not seeing her was not pleasant for him
He had missed her last night... quite a bit
He wanted to be at both ends of a road
The missing Nupur intensely, grieving for her, thinking about her, fooling himself she was still alive, talking about the 10 years of married life with his in laws
AND

Seeing Suvechha Dhabolkar after work, having her show up unanounced at his door
Driving her to her society
The quiet resolve in her eyes, the way she sparkled when she interacted with Aadhya
The concern she felt for his son Nihar
She never took anything for granted being in the misogynist, sexist advtg world, she held her own
She didnt automatically expect to get a ride to work or ride home
She didnt expect anything


"Why didnt you bring Aadhya?" he asked

"It was a work dinner... sai nai tha" she said nodding, convincing herself in her process

"Even when I asked you to?" he asked

She looked up at him  "Aapke in laws aaye hai, it wud be awkward, will you tell them I am a  special coworker? that has special rights?" she asked

A fleeting expression of discomfort passed over his face, she realized she was right

"Hamey laga aap unse milna nahi chahti"

"I am sorry aisa nai hai... mere ko unse kya problem... they seem like nice people"
she nodded unwilling to give him the pleasure of knowing even SHE admitted that they werent JUST coworkers

"And thats why you left without seeing me at the school fair?" he asked

She suddenly realized he was "expecting" from her

That warmed her heart
The cynicism of the situation grounded her when she began to float

He wanted her to meet his in laws?
He was still very much married... in his mind

"Aapka time off request dekha humne" he said

She nodded looking clearly at him

"DO HAFTE?" he accused and then toned it down quickly  "Koi baat hai Nasik mein?" he asked quizzing her if there was an event of some sort she was headed to.

"Aai Baba ka ghar hai" she said


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