Originally posted by Nisha0604
Originally posted by shidin0117
was refreshing and waiting for the update...dil bhar aaya...why shld Savvy have died? just imagining how much more II would have been pampered had Savitha Bhalla been alive?...sigh...the discussions amma and savvy would have had...
Thanks for the update Nisha..
Good night/morning...
Why did Savvy die?
Well... each of us is only entitled to "some" happiness in life, thats the truth
I am not talking about wealth and nice cars and a Ivy League degree
I am talking about death, alone
We are not entitled to have and keep everyone we love
There is no explanation for why the kids should even hurt so much
There isnt...
Life is a bitch, Shilpa
You can use religion, or spirituality or any mumbo jumbo to rationalize other people's grief very easily
When we ourselves lose someone precious, few are able to say
"Laa dee daa... I must have been a bitch in my previous birth, according to Chapter 17 of the Karma Book I was let off easy Phew!!"
"Oh! Well I deserved to have a parent die"
"I am glad my wife died. Coz God wants it to be that way""God says thats how it should be, so I guess its all OK now"
I am yet to hear anyone say the above
True Nisha...I sometimes wonder what if there were no religions, no scriptures, no so called leaders...religious...no Gita, no Bible no Quran and so on...would life have been simpler without people getting divided on basis of religions, castes, quotas...live and let live...sometimes imaginable most of the times unimaginable...we are all so deeply entrenched in religion...
When something bad happens to an atheist...then it will be easy to say oh...he never believed in God...hence this is happening...and whom to blame when something happens to devout person ...bad luck, karma...or some meaning less explanations...unexplainable...not understandable forever i think...
And I think even I am not making complete sense...let me go catch some sleep...wsa reading the old chapters...and let time get away from me...
"See he belongs to me" II muttered "can I have him for a sleepover?"
Akka rolled on the floor...
"Dont laugh, ONE DAY KA" "I PROMISE I will take good care" Ii begged
"Come to D II and hold him all day" Akka sniffled wiping off laugh tears
"Then he wont be "mine" II BLURTED
Akka paused stunned
II did too unable to retrace her steps
what was said was said...
"U want a baby dont you?" Akka said softly
II's insides gathered and went down the clear tube... swishing and spinning like fruits in a blender...
AYYO!! NOW AKKA KNOWS
NOW AKKA KNOWS
BEFORE LONG SHE WILL TELL RAKSHASAN
THATS ALL I NEED
A LONG DISTANCE MARRIAGE
AND A LONG DISTANCE BABY
"I am just delusional" II fumbled
"U want a baby dont you" Akka spoke real softly now
"I have a new boss, I HATE HER. I am living out of town now, my husband lives out of the country. I have a sister in law at home that (II stopped)
I am alsmot getting ready to be done with this nightmare installation, I am SEEING THINGS, VERA ONNUM ILLE (Nothing else)"II fought valiantly
"Ishita?????" Akka ordered her to quit lying
OK FINE I WANT ONE
JUST ONE
JUSSSTTT ONEEE
NOT MORE
I DONT KNOW WHAT SHATABDI DID TO ME
ITS LIKE THE MOVIES
I SEE HIM BALD AND HAIRY WITH SCRAPS OF EMBRYONIC GOO STUCK TO HIM
AND YET HE MAKES MY EGGS DO A KATHAKALI??Blushing
INSANITY
MADNESS
PAITHYAKAARA TANAM
I AM JUST DELUSIONAL CONFUSED AND CONFLICTED
I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT FROM LIFE
RAKSHASAN WILL PACK HIS BAGS ON FRIDAY AND GO BACK
I AM LIKE THE WOMAN IN HARLEQUIN STORIES
I WANT AN "ANCHOR BABY" SO MY HUBBY WILL STAY WITH ME
PATHETIC!!
UR SISTER IS THE MOST PATHEIC CREATURE AKKA
I AM DESPERATE AND MENTAL
UMM... BTW
CAN I GET PREGNANT AND DELIVER BY FRIDAY?
OR SUNDAY?
HES MOST LIKELY TO LEAVE BY SUNDAY
HE DOESNT STAY MORE THAN A WEEK AWAY I AM TOLD
"No ka I dont" II lied with conviction
"U said u dont want to marry R&B either remember?" Akka pointed out some umm...inconvenient... ummm.. truths...?? lies???
OH WHATEVER!!
GO GET A LIFE!!
LIKE THATS THE POINT
ITS NEITHER A TRUTH NOR A LIE
AND I NEVER SAID I DONT WANT TO MARRY HIM
I FANTASIZED BEING HIS BRIDE BETWEEN MY JOB BUILDS
BETWEEN CURSING HIM ABOUT GURGAON WORKSHOP'S ANCIENT SYSTEMS
"Apdi sollave ille naan" (I never said anything like that)
"really? those Sat morning convos?" Akka scoffed
"Umm.. whatever" II flushed guilty
"And in my house that night when u admitted u loved him" Akka said with a sigh
"IVE NEVER SAID THAT" II said vehemently
"Ofcourse not! You only circle each other like the moon and the earth"
From begging akka to give baldie for a sleepover and not wanting to have a baby...II is almost on the verge of delivering her own baby...and the story keeps us hooked, addicted even to date...hats off to yyour special talent Nisha...
Edited by shidin0117 - 6 years ago
Too painful...! 
