Raman's/Ishita's Frustrations Ishra SS/ OS MATURE LAST PART PAGE 13

ISHITA'S FRUSTRATION

19^th November 2014

I know I must express my emotions and frustration somewhere! This is why I have turned to you my old friend, my journal!

Where should I start?

I guess I must start with a confession.

 I, Ishita Raman Kumar Bhalla am hopelessly and desperately in LOVE!!

Yes blissfully, wonderfully and hopelessly in love with my husband Raman, urf Ravan, Kud Kud Kumar Bhalla!

Every time I think about it, I begin to feel a delicious feeling possess my whole body and consume me!

The blush that arises on my face is like a slow yet steady fire burning on a cold winter's night!

My heart feels as if it would explode into a million pieces if I do not share this sweet, delicious and exhilarating feeling with someone! Everyone! Anyone!

But how can I? I cannot!

As the person who all my love, my passion and my desire is directed towards does not even acknowledge my existence!

That RAAVAN KUMAR!!

He is the bane of all my problems, especially this sweet, sweet torture! And the cause of my many embarrassments!!

Only yesterday, after lamenting for many weeks, I plucked up the courage to seek some advice from Vandu akka.

I wanted some help to clarify my feelings for Raman and maybe get some advice as to how to take our relationship forward. 

Accidentally Mahika also heard me baring my soul to Akka!

My embarrassment knew no bounds!! I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me up as after this revelation a series of jokes and leg pulling began! Mahika became a rollercoaster and began an elaborate plan for me to confess my feelings to Raman!

Her plan began with a shopping trip to some of the best designer boutiques of Delhi in order to buy some sexy' sarees, sexy' nightwear and to my further embarrassment multiple pieces of shockingly scant lingerie!! 

It was all part of her plan to aesthetically please and draw my husband's attention to me before my so called confession! 

I hadn't realized that I would need to go to such lengths to show Raman my love but among a fit of giggles, Mahika assured me 'Akka these will all help your cause tremendously' and winked!

I reluctantly agreed and thought that I would begin to implement her plan' with the beautiful blue net saree, which had a daring 1 hook blouse like I had never worn before! The pallu was rather sheer too and almost non-existent.

Although I felt a little embarrassed at first I began to feel rather confident as well as desirable as the minutes went by! I came out of the bathroom, all excited, and went into the bedroom.

But Raman was busy on the phone.

He didn't notice me.

Is breakfast ready? I'm late for a meeting!' He said without looking at me and walked out to the sitting room!

Is that all he had to say?

Arrrggg this Ravan Kumar!!!

I calmed myself. Breathe Ishu. Count to ten. He's busy. He'll notice. Blue is his favourite colour. Plus he's always telling you to wear designer sarees.

I moved to the kitchen. Everyone noticed and commented on my new avatar. Romi even wolf whistled! This made me blush from head to toe! But did HE look at me? Notice me? Comment? 

NO!!

The great RKB didn't even acknowledge the effort I had made for him! Instead he picked up a slice of toast, continued to talk on the phone and walked out of the door to his office!! 

This was the limit! I have never felt so frustrated in my life! How could I confess to him about my feelings and love when he didn't even respond to me!

I was so disheartened that after coming into my bedroom I decided to return my new purchases and calm my hormones down. 

As I sat down on the bed my phone bleeped.

There was a message...

From Raman.                                        

'Loved the saree...especially the 1 hook at the back of the blouse!'

My heart burst into a thousand butterflies as my face started to burn with the deepest blush EVER!

Another bleep.

'Konsay konsay nayay roop dikhao gi aaj raat ko??'

I blushed harder.

If that was is possible!