You know Vaish, I really don't know how to comment on this piece. One because it's RR and two because it's saddened me deeply. I'm moved by the depth of her agony/despair and regret. Also, I loved the parallel you drew between her feelings of solitude once before and then again now. I was quite surprised when I realised the time it is set in. I was reading it as being set right after her confrontation with Thakur-Sa. So imagine my surprise when I realised this is after another false accusation and then everything just got so much better.
For it to be Rudra to realise she's thirsty and come give her water was sooo delicious and believable it almost made me want to squeal. Gorgeous detail there. So telling and just YAY!
I just love everything about this. Please write more on PaRud because you treat them sooo well.