dear balhians i know this lines remind you of sr bacchans dialogue but i thought of writting a small ss just indicating priyas lonelyness...here i go with part 1 hope you like this emotional stuff...
Priya has started a new diary which she is writing to reduce the pain of being alone ''and she has wriiten on its first page itself'.."main aur meri tanhaai"''
lamba arsa ho gaya hai ab khud ko mile hue,
papa ki beti,kartik Ayesha ki behen, maa ki majboori,krishna ma ki bahu, rishab nuts ki bhabhi, vikram neha ki dost'.saare rishte mil gaye unhe nibhate hue priya kahan kho gayi pata hi nahi chala
kuch wakt ke liye mulkat hui khudse lekin koi mujhse itna jud gaya ke mujhe khud ko bhula ke uss ke liye apne aap ko gavana pada. Mere jindagi mein "Ram" woh insaan banke aaye jinhone mujhe pura kiya , main thi sab ke liye lekin aadat thi jo kabhi bhi badli ja sakti thi, lekin Ram meri jindagi mein aaye who insaan bankar jinke liye main aadat nahi jarrorat ban chuki thi 'iss baat ki khushi jitni thi utna hi dukh bhi ke maine ek insaan ki jindagi ki raftaar rok di'.iss dard se bada koi dard nahi tha
Main ram ko khud ke liye tadapta hua nahin dekh sakti thi, woh bas khush rahe yehi dua mangi maine har pal aur jab unki jindagi aur khushiyon ke raaste me main hi dewaar ban gayi toh maine un se door jana thik samajha '..mere upar ram ka pyaar itna haavi tha ke sahi galat se pare sirf ram aur unka aage badhna dikha '
Main janti thi who nahi badhenge aage lekin kam se kam who roj mujhe uss kaidi ke roop mein dekh kar apne aap ko kosenge toh nahin woh shaadi na kare lekin apne bhai behen mein toh kuch smay khushi ka bita lenge aur kya pata kisi ki baat pe raaji ho kar shaadi kar le '.mujhe chaahat hai unki khushi ki bass aur kuch nahi '
Aab mujhpe jimmedari hai un do baachiyon ki jinki ma ne aakhri wakt mein unko mere hawale kiya'uss ma ki iss amanat ko main pohocha doon phir dekehnge jindagi kahan le jaati hai''
Ab in tanahayiyon ki aadat si ho gayi hai'
Jindagi mein pyaar ke mayne samjhe tab tak ashwin ne propose kar diya tha, lekin usne bhi dhoka diya aur pyaar par se vishwaas uth gaya lekin ram ne mujhe sikhaya saacha pyaar , unko jitna diya usase kahin jyada unhone mujhe diya'who choti choti baatein, who pagal jaisi khwahishein poori karna ..pata nahi kabhi laut kar aayenge bhi woh din'.
Dubai pohoch gayi aur in baccho ko unke guardian ke pass phocha diya lekin ab aankh khuli toh khud ko hospital mein paya abhi bass daai jaan ki rah dekh rahi hoon 'doctor bhi aaye nahi unse pooch loon ki hua kya hai'.
Doctor ne jaise jindagi ki nayi shuruvat di hai'.tanhai nahi hai meri jindagi mein mere ram ke aane ki dastak hui hai 'pata nahi who junior ram hoga ya junior priya lekin mera man toh junior ram hi chahta hai'..doctor ne kahan ke use iss duniya mein lana asan nahi hai 'jaan ja sakti hai ..doctor ko ab kya pata ke lasshein mara nahin karti '
Mere ram ke pyaar ko main apne jiteji mar nahi sakti bass uss ke liye jii sakti hoon pata nahi jabse ye khabar suni hai dil khush rehne laga hai jaise kisine nayi jaan phook di ho mujhme 'haan nayi jaan toh aayi hai '.mere aur mere ram ki pyaar ki nishani aur iss baat ko janane ka hak sabse pehle unhe hai'..
Jindagi mein ab bhi bohot kuch baki hai jo ram ke saath jeena hai, apna ghar , apna parivaar basana hai, ram se dher saari battein karni hain , unki bahon mein khud ko bhool jana hai , bas unki dhadkan sunate hue sona hai aur subah unka chehra dekh kar uthna hai jindagi se ab khuch aur nahi mangna ram ke saath ke siva'
Jab bhi inhe urgent phone lagane ki koshish karo golu busy hi ayenge'.ghar pe karo toh bahar hai office karo toh jaldi nikal gaye'pata nahi'
Ram ka call connect hua lekin mujhe apne aap ko unke life se disconnect karna pada shayad who aage badhne ki koshish kar rahe ho..woh kisiki tarref karein ye bohot mushkil se hota hai'kya pata mere 6 mahino ke saath ne ye bhi sikha diya ho ya phir vikram ke kehne pe bina dekhe hi complement di ho''kuch bhi ho ab who aage badh rahe hain toh mai unke beech mein unki jindagi ki raftaar ko nahi rokungi'..
Tanhayi hai, bebasi hai lekin apne bhi hai aur saath mein kuch sapne bhi hai, har din kuch nayi hulchul ho rahi hai '.daai jaan bohot kuch kar rahi hai 'shayad maa ye sab karti ya phir Krishna ji karti'.
Unse main ye sab chupa ke galat kar rahi hoon lekin ram ki khushi kea age ye iljaam bhi gavara hai mujhe..bass aap khush rahiye ram''
5 mahine ho gaye hain aaj, ye jo koi bhi hai jo mere andar badh raha hai ram ki puri carbon copy hai iske wajah se main aloo ke parathe kha rahi hoon main, lassi pi rahi hoon, saari who cheeje kha rahi hoon jo ram khate hain, patan nahi apple, salad dekh ke hi muh ban jata hai, jisase din ki shuruvaat hoti thi wohi cheeje ab ankhon ke samne bhi nahi chahiye '.
Kaash ram hote mere saath, woh dekh paate ke kaise unka ansh mere andar hai 'tanhayi khatam hogi bhi'
Jara sa chalti hoon toh thak jaati hoon daai jaan ne god bharai ki rasam rakhi hai'.kehti hai pehle bacche ki khushi manani chahiye'7 mahine ho gaye hain ab 'use mehsoos karne agi hoon 'apne papa ka ansh hai gol mol sa kuch ghoomta hai kick karta hai '.aur mujhe bhi apne papa ki tarah golu bana rakha hai'
Itni baatein maine tab bhi nahi ki hongi jab main bacchii thi cady ab pakki dost ban gayi hai meri'..usse duniya bhar ki baatein karti hoon itna main kabhi bolti nahi lekin lagta hai ..ye bhi junior kapoor ki meherbani hai jo main har kisi se baat karna chahti hoon'
9wa mahina suru ho gaya hai ab doctor ne kahan hain ke risk na le aur admit ho jaye lekin book shop bhi nahi chod sakti na aise hi'.
Phir iss natkhat ke janam ke baad toh pata nahi rahoon ya ''..nahi no negative thoughts'..mujhe jeena hai ab apne bacche ke liye use ram tak jo pohochana hai '..
Aaj ek nanhi si jaan mere haath mein aayi, ankhein ram bilkul aap jaisi,hoth, baal uske itne ghane baalon mein haath ferte hue laga jaise aap ho, uski massomiyat se bhari ankein aur gol gol chehra aur mere taraf bass dekhte rehna aap ki yaad dila raha hai raam aap yahan aa jaiye mujhe aapki jarrorat hai,,'..dukh main apke bina sehen kar loongi lekin khushi who apke saath hi hai varna woh bhi adhoori hai'..
Dheere dheere badh rahi hai peehu..haan uska naam peehu rakah hai uski avaaj jaise koi dhun ho '.kaano mein gunjti rehti hai aur bhook ke mamle pe aap ko bhi do kadam peeche chod de hamari peehu the papas girl...2 second bhi madam se bhook bardasht nahi hoti...ram apko ek baat batati hoon jab use bhook lage aur main use wakt pe na feeding doon toh madam phir feeding leti nahi hai ...use godi mein uthao to shant ho jayegi lekin gall gubbare banake moo yahan wahan karti rehti hai...adha ghanta pareshaan karegi tab jake properly kuch khayegi...
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