Fragments of life
Yes, I'm
finally back!:D missed me?:P So I've been pretty depressed lately with the
exams prep. that's why a sad piece. But for the first time I'm actually happy
with the outcome :D
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VaVoWbyx-7U[/YOUTUBE]
There's so much soul in the song that I couldn't stop loving it and it kinda goes with the story:P
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Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people stay for awhile, and move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to a new understanding, leave footprints on our hearts,
and we are never, ever the same.
- Flavia Weedn
It brings a smile to my face as I go through all the pictures. Each of the photos brings back a memory, a fragment from the past. Faces smeared with birthday cakes, falling into the mud, pushing people, farewell hugs, tears of happiness, lost friends and everything else was now just a memory- sweet but just a memory.
I wish I didn't have to say this, but life isn't always sunshine and roses. Bitter, sweet, highs, lows, joys, sorrows - together is known as life.
Arnav had now become a part of those sweet memories. However hard it may seem, I had to live without the person who, at one point, was the reason for which I breathed. Arnav was that person who held me together when I'd be about fall apart, he'd stick no matter what, and he'd be that guardian who'd shield me from all sorts of harm. My tears, my sorrows, my pain would prick him more than it would hurt me.
Moving on is simple,
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
I often wished I'd died along with him in that accident, but now I tried to look at the brighter side. I'd realize how Arnav would've been happy to see me much stronger than I used to be.
Yes, life teaches us a new lesson every day. With every good or bad experience came a little message, a lesson that stays with us forever. In my case, Arnav's death made me much stronger, much less vulnerable to the odds.
I remember how I had told Arnav once that I'd probably die if he ever left me. And then, he said that he'd never leave me. Arnav didn't keep his promise but that didn't matter.
Now that I look back, it all feels so different, so unlike now.
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Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything.
It's the time we spent together that matters, not how we left it.
- Trey Parker
Nothing really feels bad anymore, probably because the worst had already happened. Sometimes, I feel Arnav is around me. I might sound plain strange but it does feel like Arnav actually still speaks to me. Whenever there's some kind of trouble approaching, I can feel Arnav trying to warn me out of it.
The only thing I hated now was how everyone kept asking me to get married. I could never imagine even in my wildest dream someone else in Arnav's place. The place he held in my life rose above all. Nothing mattered more than Arnav. People said that the life of a widow was hard. Some would taunt, some would show false sympathy and claim how they totally understood my pain whereas it actually meant nothing to them. My loved ones wanted to see me settled and happy again, but there was no way I'd give Arnav's place to someone else in my life.
The pain would always remain but time heals everything. It just seemed less excruciating now, since I was accustomed to the lonely life I was destined to. It's just those nights that hurt. The nights where the moon shone brightly in the sky after a heavy downpour, when you'd probably cuddle into beloved's arms and whisper those sweet nothings. But now those nights were just like any other one.
I'd live, somehow I knew I would.
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