Love-hate .. Khushi's POV!

I don't know how I felt about today's episode.. The romance was cute.. omg.. did you see the way they slept together today.. seriously and still... NOTHING! now I'm having doubts about their sexuality. 😕 Ok, that was meant as a joke! 😆 I'm so glad I had that nervous breakdown over the weekend and was angry at Arnav, so it didn't feel so bad today. I was just shaking my head.

Ok, now you have made your judgement... she is a basher, not a true fan! Or you might say, but Arnav loves Khushi. Yes, I know that.. yes, you know that.. but does Khushi know that? She sees a guy who loves her one moment and then hurts her the next? How can she ever trust him? Do I hate Arnav? No, I can never hate him. I stop there, before I get overworked and write a huge post 😆

Ok, now what I loved most about today's episode?

ASR's tune for Khushi .. lol '

I feel terrible for Khushi, not because of the way Arnav treats her.. I feel like she might have a nervous breakdown soon, the way her mind keeps going back and forth between love and hate for Arnav.. I keep having nervous breakdowns because of Arshi (as if I didn't have enough because of my own personal life ).. and Khushi is the one actually suffering.. I'm just watching them.. So in honor of that I thought I'll write a different post today..

The Arnav part of Khushi's brain speaks!

June 2011 ' I hate him, what a monster Laad Governor, who does he think he is.

July 2011 ' I hate him, what a monster, who does he think he is. How dare he feed me water, but I can't help but stare at him and I hated it when he fed Lavanyaji.

Aug 2011 ' I hate him, but I have to see him everyday now!

Sep 2011 ' I hate him, but' he bought all the doves to see the smile on a little girl's face. I hate him.. how could he force Lavanyaji to live with him? I hate him.. he kicked me out in the street and at many occasions, mentally and physically abused me.. but.. I did hurt him too; I threw hot tea on him. Oh wait, but he said sorry to me, even though he never said sorry to anyone before. He also was concerned about me; he asked me if I was alright, when he knew I was upset. Why did a dupatta from his hand fall on my head?

Oct 2011 ' I hate him ' hmm' do I? Why did I cry when he hugged Lavanya? Why does my heart beat increase when I'm around him? Why did I run to him for comfort when Babuji had a heart attack? Why do I keep thinking about him? Why do I see him everywhere? Why do I want to see him all the time? When he is around, why do I want to look at him? And when he looks at me, why do I feel different? When he touched me to blow out the dirt from my eyes and untangle the lights, why did I feel different? But forget about me, why did he take care of me at the dhaba and why did he beat up those goons? Why does he do stuff he normally doesn't do, like attend and get involved with household chores around me or when I ask him to? Why does he look at me with those loving, brown eyes?

Nov 2011 ' He hates me. I hate him. I am quitting my job, so I don't have to see him again.. but why do I feel sad? We have decided not to see each other. But why do I keep staring at the bandage that he tied around my ring finger? What can I expect from someone who told me that I am not important to him, what happened between us meant nothing to him. Why was he so concerned that I got engaged? No, I hate him. I don't want anything to do with him.

Dec 2011 ' I hate him, but I have to work with him to bring Akashji and Jiji together' but.. he said sorry to Jiji and said that what happened was not my fault. Omg, I can't see Arnavji sad, so I can't tell him about Shyam. I hate Arnavji, he must be the reason behind his and Lavanyaji's breakup. I don't want to go to Raizada house but I have to for Jiji's sake. I don't want to dance with Arnavji, but.. I can't help look at him.. and when he looks at me.. and when he touches me.. what the..rabba ve!

Jan 2012 - I didn't want to see him at New Year's eve.. but when I saw him.. oh great, my whole year is ruined now!Then he challenged me, I will challenge him too.. But when I slapped him, he didn't slap me! I tricked him, but he challenged me.. how dare he? I'm going to win the sangeet, that will show him who is better! He danced with me .. he touched me.. omg, my heart is going wild! No, I can't let him affect me this way. I told him I didn't want to see him, but then I was so worried about him when he went missing. Hehe, something about me spending time with Nanheji bothers him. I am going to tease him more! OMG! He kissed me. Ha! But I kissed him too.. I won' but wait, why am I blushing?