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How much did she resist him all this while?
He tried his best to crack her shell, to see the girl inside, but her shell was reinforced and hardened by so many painful experiences that mere physical pain couldn't even scratch its surface.
But there was a weakness in the shield, that one his mother swung a sledgehammer into and her shell broke like a glass curtain. The vulnerable girl inside is exposed, shocked, angry , violent at the trespassing. She pushes everything away and runs.
If he didn't really want to know the girl inside that shell , he could've let her go. But he didn't , he took every step , insistent to bring her back and keep her with him.
Be angry, but be angry here. We talk, we discuss, we sort. Together.
No quitting allowed.
Shivaay holds her protectively, forming a shell around her for her. She leans into him and he keeps her safe. All those times he wanted to see her Dard, now there is so much pain he sits there stroking her as she hurts all over.
"I'll fight the whole world, I'll fight the fate God's given me
But I cannot fight you... I just cannot...
Feeling sorry for being to one who let out all this pain, he keeps negating all her feeble attempts to fight him. Stop fighting me , Annika. I won't hurt you. Stop. He kisses her softly on her head, soothingly much like he soothes Rudra.
Suddenly, Annika feels goosebumps. He is all around her. She feels his warmth all over, hands touching her so intimately. No one has ever come this close to her. When did this happen? When did this start to feel so nice and ... like home?
Dare I touch him too? Do you think he'd mind?
She moves her hands to put it over his, but his hand moves away. She retreats, feeling vulnerable again. But his hand had moved to her head, stroking her so lovingly, kissing her head so caringly.
Her hand bunches over her dress, trying to keep her response in check. Get a hold over yourself , Annika...
He is comfortable, softly soothing the girl he cares about so much.
She had let him in, finally.
Now their bond is stronger than ever before.
She gets up suddenly, awkward. He is confused, eyes still soft and warm. She puts a distance, and he realizes she feels shy about how close they were just now.
"Were you embarrassed, by what just happened?"
She looks away, not meeting his eyes, refusing to admit it. But she is , shy.
She tries to walk away but he wasn't finished talking. He had listened to her, now she had to listen to his side.
"I didn't mean to hurt you , Annika.. "
"Still you hurt me anyway..."
"It wasn't intentional.."
"I can't change overnight. I need some time. Please give me some time..." Shivaay opens up for the first time, he reveals how much all this has messed with his head, and that he isn't able to take it in his stride as easily. He asks for some time, and not for her to keep running off , or having to chase her all the time.
I want us to be together, but give me some time to sort this out in my head.
"Take all the time you need. Just know that I am still only Annika, and I can't change that."
"I don't want to change that. Sirf Annika..."
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