Shivika Os 50th AT celebration- 1)Broken 2)Anguish updated

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Guys so this a new OS series I have written on Shivika and this is a part of Shivika 50th AT celebrations so do check it out and please appreciate the work and creations of all the makers👏
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Chapter 1- Broken

"So where are those two? Shivaay and Anika? They said they will be here in a few minutes. But from their tone they sounded serious. I am worried for them guys." said Omkara in his deep throghty voice which he had mastered dealing with various clients and dealers all over the world being in dealing with antiques. "They must be on their way. I talked to the Jet's Pilot and they landed Half an hour ago. But I think Om may be right. Something is definitely up with those two. I talked to Shivaay yesterday and he sounded depressed. He is still feeling guilty and spends most of his time locked away working himself to the grave in New York office and as a brother I am worried to death for him. He was workaholic before but now he took the term to whole new level. I am thinking of forcing him to take a vacation" said Omkara in a grim tone earning nods on his idea from his family. "It is the same for Anika Di. It's been two years since the incident but it seems none of them are ready to forgive and forget and move on with their lives. It's like their life is on a hold. Just last week I Skyped her and she was looking bad. She has lost too much weight and was in London opening her new Restaurant in Piccadilly. I asked her why she is going herself when her staff can handle it but she insisted to do it herself. I am worried about her. She told me she is seeing a shrink so that's a good sign and today they are coming here together after a long time so that is a great indication. Right?" asked Ishana to which the gang replied in affirmation.

"Hi you guys. It's great to see you" said Anika in a fake cheerful voice and hugging everyone in the room one by one followed by an angry Shivaay looking like Hulk with muscles and veins popping out. He looked jaded and worn out but had a cold expression on his face chilling everyone in the room. He looked harder and more bulky than he had been before leaving Oberoi Mansion 6 years ago, looking more mature and fit than his 38 years still earning him lustful glances from the opposite sex between the age groups of 18-80. "Hey bhaiyya it's nice to see you. I thought this week too will also be awkward because you both would come here to meet us at alternate weeks but this time you are here together. It's so weird when you used to come we couldn't talk about Anika Didi and when Anika Didi was here we couldn't talk about you so this time I am happy that I can talk about both of you." said Rudra to which everyone except Shivaay and Anika howled "Shut up Rudra". "It's okay Rudra. We are here now and very civil to each other. We have some news for you guys" said Anika making Shivaay clench his jaws scaring everyone in the radius of a foot. "So what is it?"asked Ishana curious to know what was making Shivaay so angry.

"We are divorcing each other with mutual consent" said Anika spreading violent silence in the room to process what she just said. "No. We are not divorcing each other with mutual consent and the truth is you are divorcing me" said Shivaay clenching his teeth and trying unsuccessfully to check his temper. "Please Shivaay we have talked about this. There is nothing left in our relationship and I think we should call it quits. I know you think I am being hasty with my decision but I gave it a lot of thought and someday you will understand my decision and even thank me from freeing you from this marriage. And I came here to tell you all personally rather than through my lawyer. Guys, I don't think it's fair for any of you to choose between us as he is your brother and your loyalty lies with him first so I am making it easy for you and moving away. Shivaay I don't want anything from you, not even alimony. I have enough money of my own which anyways I can't spend in this lifetime so you don't need to worry about that. I don't know when will we meet again so for now Goodbye and Good luck." uttering these words Anika exited the CR and ran away. Shivaay made an attempt to follow her but Ishana detained him and said "Let her go Bhaiyya. You have hurt her enough and I think she deserves some space." To which Omkara took Ishana's hand from Shivaay and nudged him to follow Anika and stop her. They shared some telepathic conversation by looking at each other and without saying a word Ishana threw his Pass card to the company Penthouse located on 40^th floor of the Oberoi Art Hub tower in Soth Mumbai, next to his Cabin and nodded him to get some privacy.

Shivaay ran towards the Executive elevator and saw the door closing but he gained some momentum and entered it just in time. A startled Anika turned around to look at a very angry Shivaay pressing the 40^th floor button and as she tried to press for Car park he threw her over his shoulder and with his other hand subdued her attempts to escape. As the 40th floor was exclusive and you needed a special Entry card. He lodged Omkara's card in the slot and the doors of the elevator opened and carrying a very persistent Anika, Shivaay entered the Penthouse apartment which was lavishly furnished and closed the door with his feet. He settled Anika on the floor and before she should make into run Shivaay took her by wrist and locked her between his arms like an embrace between lovers but in this case more like a cage to prevent her escape. He took both her wrist in his one hand and by other he brought her face closer which she resisted with all her might but he was too strong for her. He gently kissed away her tears with his soft lips and then made way towards her lips but at the last moment she turned her face away angering Shivaay making him tighten his hold on her wrists with bruising force making Anika whimper. She murmured "Shivaay you are hurting me" to which Shivaay laughed at her cruelly and still tightening his hold making the pain unbearable for Anika and bringing her face closer by his tight holds on her jaw and replied "It is nothing in comparison to the pain which you have given me. You just decided I committed some sort of crime, you ran a trial and you declared me guilty without hearing a word from me in defense. And for the past one and a half year you have been punishing me and I have been suffering from it and now once again you have just announced you are divorcing me. Have I no say in this? Are you the only one in this relationship? You do not make these decisions alone. We both made this marriage and you can't just end it without my permission. You get it? You are Mine and you will be mine until I say so. I don't allow you to leave you hear me. This is not over and it will not be over till I say so." "You know what you problem is Shivaay for the last 6years we have been together and in 4 years of marriage with I have realized it's always about you isn't it? Our entire relationship has always been on what you want and about what you like. I have always been the second rate citizen in this relationship and you only don't want to divorce me because I want it and I asked for it. It would have been different if you asked for it, isn't it? I had enough of you. I can't take it anymore being less important then you and feeling inferior to you" said Anika in a calm and almost emotion less voice making Shivaay ready to explode with anger seeing the indifference on his face for the end of their marriage and said angrily "That's bullshit Anika and you know it. I love you and that is the only reason why I won't divorce you because it is not over for me."

"You know Shivaay over the years I have taken a lot of crap from you but you know what now I don't care about your reasons for stretching this relationship unnecessarily. For me this relation was over the day my baby died in front of me and you were not there with me. "said Anika in a low voice as him striking Shivaay in the gut when he suddenly released his wife and stared at her with regret, sorrow and lot's of pain.
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Chapter 2: Anguish coming soon
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Chapter-2 Anguish

Shivaay paced around boring a hole on the plush Persian carpet the Oberois bought from their family vacation. "After all this time you still blame me for that incident" said Shivaay in a low voice but enough for Anika to hear who had tears in hers eyes thinking about the worst two days of her life and said "No Shivaay I don't blame you for what God did but I just can't look at you and not recall those two horrid days of my life when I was dying and so was my baby. I can't help but think I couldn't have been with my baby when he was dying within few hours of his birth all alone in his respirator of the NICU while you were on the other side of the world in London visiting your ex girlfriend Tia and meeting her parents on her birthday which ironically now also is your dead baby's birthday. My baby was dying alone and you couldn't bother to pick up your phone. For hours of being operated when I was finally conscious you know the first person I saw was Ishana who had flown down from States and delivered me the bad news herself but by own husband couldn't make it. I can't see at you and not feel disgusted by thinking you didn't even reach to your own son's funeral when all our whole family dropped everything and came down from around the world. Even Uncle Tej. I had to bury him. How do I look at you and not feel disappointed thinking you could just leave your eight months pregnant wife alone and not return any of the 100 calls she made to inquire whether she was alive or dead. No Shivaay I don't blame you but I loathe you. I loathe you for never letting Tia go because she was with me like a shadow for the entire 6 years I have known you. I could see sometimes you compared me with her in your head but I was fine with it satisfied that at the end of the day you were still mine. But you weren't mine, were you? You still care surname, linage and social status don't you? I could bear almost anything you threw at me but flinging your decision of choosing being with Tia over me and my baby I could never bear that".

This made Shivaay feel as if his whole body is being ripped apart into a million pieces. He never felt so helpless, venting all his frustration and anger by thrashing Omkara's apartment and destroying every bit and pieces of furniture that came his way. He smashed a crystal vase from the floor and its pieces flew around and nicked Anika's arm making her scream at Shivaay to stop. Shivaay turned around and stepped towards her but she took a step back with a scared expression on her face and doing absolutely nothing to stop the blood flowing from the nasty gash on her arm. Shivaay took deep breath and controlled his boiling rage. He tried once again and took Anika by her wrist in his big rough hands and made her sit on the leather couch on the other side of the room which was spared by Shivaay who now messing around in the kitchen pulling various kinds of drawers and finally returned with a first aid kit. He began cleaning the wound gently and said "I am sorry. I didn't mean to do this and scare you. I hope you know I would never intentionally hurt but I hurt you anyway so...I am sorry." to which she didn't reply and he continued applying ointment and some bandages while surprisingly to shivaay, Anika remained calm and didn't once flinch while whenever she used to get hurt she used to create a lots of drama and had a low threshold for pain and he fondly used to call her "Drama queen" as she used to enjoy his attention and care.



Shivvay took some deep breathe trying his best not to cry hearing Anika say what he knew and seeing what he now saw of her as a lifeless bony skeleton but he never imagined what all this meant for her or how deep her feelings really ran. Now the more he think about how brave she has been through all these and what an absolute bas***d he was, Shivaay couldn't seem to forgive himself either. He took Anika's hand in his large ones and slowly said "You are right. If I was in your shoes I wouldn't forgive myself either so I won't even bother with a sorry because I know it wouldn't even cover a quarter of my sins. So the only way I can redeem myself is by giving you what you want. Don't worry I will sign the divorce petition and you don't even need to see me. My lawyers will take care of it and anyways we got married in India so we already had 6 months of separation period so I don't think it will be difficult for us to get it. But I just want to ask you one think if you think I deserve an answer. How was he? I mean how did he look?"

To which Anika replied in a nonchalant tone with such longing and pain at the same time making Shivaay cringe with regret for asking her such a question "He was the most beautiful baby in the whole wide world. I had never seen such a tiny baby with such tiny fingers and tiny feet. He was already dead when I held him so I just knew him in his dead form and not crying or animated like every other new born in this world. I am not sure but I asked Ishana and she agreed with me that he looked just like you. He had your blue-green Kanji eyes. Totally your carbon copy. I named him Aryaan. Aryaan Anika. "This finally broke the dam inside Shivaay who broke down in front of Anika's knee sobbing and punching his hand on the floor as if begging for his forgiveness which he knew there isn't any. After some time Anika collected Shivaay in her arms and they both cried at the loss and in the memory of their dead baby and also their dead marriage. "Why? Why did you name him Aryaan? You knew what that name meant to me?" asked Shivaay with great anguish in his voice to which Anika simply replied "Because you wanted to name our baby Aryaan and you once told me you would be okay in fact glad if our baby was noet Oberoi but just Aryaan Anika. Like a fool I believed in you. Believed you didn't care about all those thing anymore. And believe me that even if he were alive I would have named him the same because he was not just my baby but your too Shivaay. He was ours, ours Shivaay. I really do miss him Shivaay. I really do. I am in pain Shivaay but I can't feel anything. Make me feel something. Make me forget it for sometimes. Because only you have the power to make me feel butterflies in my tummy. My heart did a somersault the first time you pulled me near you in he pool. It has happened to me every single day for the last 6 year of my life since I have known you. This feeling in the pit of my stomach that I am falling very hard and only you can save me. It has hit me every time you walk through the door and each time it still takes my breath away. I know I should hate you right now and feel disgusted and revolted at your touch so let's see if that still happens or it has passed."



Shivaay carried Anika from the couch and settled her on the king sized four poster bed in the master bedroom of Omkara's Penthouse. He slowly started kissing Anika on the lips with slight pressure like the first kiss they shared mistakenly at his bachelor party before his marriage to Tia all those years ago and the beginning of their relationship. His hand started everywhere and slowly he started unbuttoning her designer Burberry chic white shirt and unbuckled it from her black pencil cut knee length skirt. He bent down to remove her modest 2 Inch Red Peep toes Lubitons. Anika returned the favors by slowly removing his expensive Gucci tuxedo as if he just stepped out from a formal ball wearing a hint of woody and masculine Calvin Klein fragrance. As Shivaay was about to completely remove her shirt Anika stopped him and asked him to turn off the lights. Shivaay was completely surprised at her demand and asked her in a puzzled tone as to what owed to this sudden shyness and modesty in front of her husband who could write a whole thesis on her delectable body with his eyes closed to which she replied consciously "A lot has happened to me and my body in last many months. I have lost all my curves and there are some very nasty and ugly scars on my tummy which I don't want you to look at so please turn off the lights." "Do you think I am some sort of superficial hormonal teenager who cared for such things and will be turned off at the sight of some scars? Even if you looked like a Frankenstein monster and I would still find you beautiful. In fact now I am more eager to see you than on our wedding night and let me remind you how eager and enthusiastic I was back then and these scars will only add to your beauty showing your immense bravery and knowing our baby Aryaan came out of there. I have never been so turned on in my life and it only motivates me to give us the best and the most memorable night of our lives because I have been told the Break up sex is best and it even beats angry one. So tonight I am going out with a bang" said Shivaay finding in his heart to smile knowing this is their last time together and this is the last time he can hold her like time. The last 6 years of his life are fading right in front of him and there is nothing he can do to stop it.

After few hours in the wee hours of morning, finally they were sprawled lazily on the bed which was now completely spoiled with pillows and sheets lying on the floor. Shivaay and Anika were completely naked and cuddling in each other arms. Anika whispered in Shivaay's ear with a slight smile playing on her lips "The magic and the butterflies are still there". She kissed Shivaay on his ears, neck, and chest and lastly on his lips mouthing "Goodbye" with taking the bed spread with her to cover her nudity which was of no use to Shivaay as he knew her body perhaps better than her. They both got ready and Anika decided to leave for airport handing Shivaay a Manila envelope with instructions to open it only after her departure. She took Shivaay in her embrace which were not enough to cover him entirely, so he decided to hug her back tightly almost knocking away breath from her lungs and slightly lifting her up from the ground even in her heels so that they both were at same eye level. He whispered sadly and gently in her ears "So this is it? Is this over now? Forever" but Anika had no reply and perhaps they both didn't need it. They both stood there for some time making time halt for a bit while recalling their journey of last 6 years from intense dislike to hate, from hate to trust and friendship leading eventually to love and marriage in few minutes. They relieved their story of an ordinary wedding planner and ruthless Bussiness Man from Mumbai to Top of their game in the Hotel and Hospitality Business circuit to be Billionaire jet setting around the world. Shivaay didn't want this moment to end and tried his best to lock Anika here like this forever when she was struggling so he had to release her and let her go. She rejected his offer of dropping her to the airport or even to her car. She even denied him the knowledge of where she was going or what her future plans were. He was only allowed to lead her to the threshold and he tried his level best to check his tears but they got better of him and he started crying and sobbing like 2 years old on his first day to school.



He remembered the last time he cried like this was when he saw Om lyting lifeless in pool. "May be she was right. May be I have never really let go of my past. May be our entire relationship was based on shadow of his insecurity regarding her name and class and intentionally or unintentionally I have always compared Anika with Tia" thought Shivaay. He vowed not to feel like that again and so he controlled his emotions and went into the apartment lobby and opened the envelope Anika had given him to find a photograph of her holding a cute small baby which you could guess from his size was a premie. The photo was probably taken in a NICU ward showing various kinds of ventilator machines and tube and respirators in background. To a third person you could see a new mother smiling at her sleeping baby but Shivaay knew his Anika was hiding her pain with her smile like she often used to do in their marriage gazing with agony at her sleeping baby who would never wake up from his lumbar. "You were wrong. He may exactly look like me withmy bluee green kanji eyes but the innocence and kindness reflecting in them is all you" said whispering, hardly audible only to his ears which were appropriate as he was alone and no was there to hear him. A sob bobbed down his Adam's apple and he tried to control himself from crying but tears trickled down his face and he placed the photograph on his heart praying to God to give him strength to make attempts and efforts for redemption and salvation for the great sins and crime he had committed. A cry of anguish echoed down the entire empty apartment and no one came to hold him.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------


The End

Read this in the 50th AT.. its so good! love it

I really like your story and your portrayal of everything. Your writing style is great. There aren't any mistakes that disturb the story or the reading experience. the only thing I would say is perhaps just splitting the paragraph into smaller paragraphs because these (I felt) were maybe a little long but then again if you like this, thats totally fine as I said, this isn't a big deal and your story and your writing are the main thing here.

Awesome and very emotional

I TOTALLY LOVE AGGRESSIVE SHIVAAY

very emotional..well written..👏

Originally posted by: dimpled.smile

Read this in the 50th AT.. its so good! love it

thank u dear😳glad I like it😃

Originally posted by: ArhiIPKKND

Very nice...so emotional...

thank u dear😳

Wonderful.continue soon.waiting. 👏