PART-21 NO HOPE...!!
Hello readers...!! Sorry for again being late...!! But college file work came up... and I couldn't write... so now let's move back to the story...!!
Happy reading...!!
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At park-
Navya , Mukti and nandini were walking...!! In the garden...!! Nandini was just looking down... as she was not able to take the light all of the sudden...!! And looking at her condition both Mukti and Navya decided to move in the shade... so they moved towards a gazebo that was in the park... and sat there...!! Both navya and Mukti were exchanging looks and were trying to initiate the conversation...!! Both were afraid about her reaction...!! And nandini she was just sitting there... looking at nothing specifically...!! She was lost in her own world...!! The world of imense darkness...!! From where everyone wanted her to come back...!! May be she also wanted the same but was not ready to accept it...!! Or was afraid to to come back...!! As whenever she tried to forget her past and move on...!! Something comes in her way that pushes her back into the darkness... !! And now she has accepted this as her fate... that darkness is all she has in her life ...!!
Putting a break to her thoughts...!! Navya initiated the conversation...
Navya: Mukti...!! Kitna time beet gaya naa...!! Sab kitna badal gaya... kaha kisi samay mai hum tum se daraa karte the... aur aaj hum do no saath hai...!! Hume aaj bhi yaad hai... jab hum pehle baar uss anjaan shehar mai aye the tab humari sab se pehle dost thi nandini...!!! Nandini tumhe yaad hai...?
( Navya asked with the hope that she may reply and say yes...!! Mujhe yaad hai...!! But nandini was no more the same so how can she say something so predictable...)
Nandini: no...!! I don't remember...!! Aur naa hi yaad rakh na hai...!!! It doesn't matter anymore...!!! Because one day everyone will leave us...!! Chahe vo Kitna hi important kyu naa ho...!!
( navya was shocked...! That how much her thinking has But thought to give her answer...!!)
Navya: nai nandini har koi ese chod kar nai jaata...!! Tum bhi toh nai gayi naa dur humse... dekho... aur naa hum tumse...!!
Nandini: u never know navya...!! Kab aapka sabse kareebi aapse dur ho jaye...!! Isilye unse khud hi dur ho jaana chahiye...!!
( navya was speechless... after her reply... as what she said is true...!! We never know what may happen in near future...!! As she has also faced this situation once... when Harshad...!! Whom she loved with whole of her heart left her... and then remembered nandini... how she also left her... and in nandini's case... she toh has faced this situation thrice ... one when her parents died... then manik left her... and then amms expired... so navya understood her... and her insecurities... regarding relationships...!! And thinking all this her eyes brimmed with tears... and them Mukti said...)
Mukti: kya jo dur chale gaye uski sazaa Un sab ko bhi milni chahiye jo har kadam pe tumhara saath dene ke liye tayaar hai...?? AUR kya pata Jo dur gaye ho... unki koi majboori ho...!! Esi majboori jiski wajah se wo chah kar bhi wapas naa aa paye ho...!!
( Mukti said this while keeping her hand on nandini's hand...!! She said this with the hope that she will understand that keeping them away because of her past experiences... will lead her no where...!! And then she wanted to know her reaction if she gets to know that manik left her because of them... so she tried asking her indirectly... nandini avoiding the first question... replied to her second statement...)
Nandini: agar chahte toh wapas aa jaate...!! Fir koi majboori maayine nai rakhti...!! It's all about what matters more...!!
( Mukti was trying to be positive...!! Giving her the reasons that those who left her did not wished to leave her but were bound to leave her...!! Her parents and amms were bound to God's action... and manik was bound because of his friends' lives... but her reply made Mukti stunned that so much of negativity is filled in her that she doesn't want to see the positive side... of anything now...!! )
The conversation was getting serious which could stress nandini so to lighten the environment she changed the topic...
Navya: aaj kitne time baad nandini tum ese humare saath bahar aayi ho...!! Yaad hai hum kitna masti kiya karte the saath mai... pehle...!! Kya hum wapas vese nai ho sakte...!!
( navya asked this with a hope... but nandini she has lost all the hopes so she replied...)
Nandini: nothing can be same again...!!
( saying so nandini stood up... and started walking...!! As if trying to run away from those past memories... even the happy memories were haunting her...!!! And to divert her mind she started looking around in the park...)
Mukti and Navya also followed her... but then stopped looking at her as she also stopped but was looking somewhere... then Navya and Mukti also shifted there gaze where nandini was looking...!!
And then they saw... a couple walking hand in hand...!! Talking and laughing... and this brought some blurred images of hers and manik... in her mind... were they were laughing together...!! She kept looking at them and then she saw the girl was about to fall but the boy saved her... and asked her if she is OK or not...!! And their this act again bought some blurred images in her mind...!! And then this was enough for her... so she just left that place... in a hurry... without giving a glance to Mukti and Navya... she walked back to her house...!!
Nandini's place-
As manik moved out of her room... after his self blaming and guilt session..!! He found cabir and abhi sitting in the hall...!! Dicussing further changes in the house... and then abhi's phone buzzed ... he checked it... and it was Mukti's call... he became worried thinking about nandini... so he received the call and then Mukti told him... that they are coming back... !!! So that manik can hide...!! And then hanging up the call he informed this to manik... and manik hid in the kitchen...!! Then after five minutes...
Nandini entered with a furious face...! They were trying to figure out what must have happened... then they saw her... moving towards her room...!! With a fast speed careless of her hand...!! Cabir and abhi were going behind her but then they saw navya and Mukti entering with dull faces...!! And on asking them they told everything about what had happened in the park... how she left from there on seeing a couple...!! Manik was also coming out after listening to this but then he saw nandini coming down again...!! So he stood there itself...
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Nandini when entered the house... moved directly to her room...!! To find her packets... as she was not able to control herself...!! She was feeling restless...( this normally happens with the drug addicts... when they see something which hurts them... they just need the drugs to calm themselves... so nandini started searching them as she reached her place...) and on not being able to find her packets she moved to down... ( she was so busy in searching the drugs that she didnt notice the mirror in her room...)and started searching them... only to be stopped by abhi...
Abhi: nandini kya kar rai ho...?? Tumhe lag jayegi...!! Ur hand is still not ok...!! Mujhe bolo kya chahiye...!!
Nandini: I want my packet... now...!! (Her breathing was really fast... as she would die if she will not get them... abhi was first shocked with her sudden demand... but then tried convincing her...)
Abhi: Nandini kya keh rai ho...!! U only said naa ki tum ek chance de rai ho hum sab ko... fir ye... I can't give and neither I will let u take...!!
Nandini : if u don't want to give then don't... I will take it myself... move...!!
( but abhi didn't moved even an inch... and then she furiously pushed him... and searched in her cupboards... but she couldn't find it... so she moved to her bar counter in the backyard followed by others... and started drinking...)
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All of them tried to stop her...but they couldn't force her as it may hurt her hand... so she kept drinking... and they were pleading her not to do this to herself...!!
She stopped when she lost her senses... !! then started walking which she was obviously not able to... so abhi came forward to help her.. to which in her drunk state she just said to all of them... J.. JU.. JUST... ST...STOP...!! D.. DON'T... C...COME... NEAR.. MM..
ME...!! U... WILL... G..GET... NO...NOTHING...!! EXC..EXCEPT... DA...DA... DARKNESS...!! TH..THERE.. IS NO HOPE...!!
Saying so she passed out... abhi and cabir held her...!! And then carried her to the room...!!
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All of them were sitting in the hall again ... manik was the last one to come out of her room...!!
Abhi : Mukti navya... say it all in detail... ki kya kya baat ki tum logon ne and then... what happened...!!
( with this navya and Mukti narrated it all in detail...)
Abhi: Guys...!! This is good ... actually a good response from her side... atleast she talked... we got to know what is actually bothering her...!! She has slipped into thus darkness because she has lost all her hopes... she has no hopes at all...!! And we need to give her that hope... that assurance that we will be there for her...!!
Manik: but abhi...!! What about her addiction ...!! How will she overcome this...!!
Abhi: manik...!! Addiction is something which decreases with time and proper treatment...!! And we are giving her that treatment... it's just the matter of time...!! With time ... as she will let it all out... her pain will decrease... and so will her addiction ...!! It's just she is not letting anyone come close to her...!! Once she talks naa... then it will all be fine... trust me...!! Look at the positive side naa... atleast she tried today... what if it failed...!! We will try again... and will surely succeed next time...!! It happens in these case we do not get instant results...!! It takes time...!! And we got to know what all things affect her...!! Seeing the couple she must have remembered something... that's why she behaved like this... and thus means she still remembers everything...!!
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Time- 12 pm:
Abhi explained them all... and they all understood... they were just talking... then... dhruv and alya entered... navya and Mukti asked them with eyes that how come they are together... as after their decision they hardly go anywhere together like this...!! To which manik blinked his eyes and they understood it was done by manik... for them...
Both of them settled and again the incident was narrated to them... and then they were sad... for her but happy atleast she tried... and then they showed what all they shopped...!! Alya had bought some long tops... jeans... bags for nandini...!! Some show pieces for her house... And then she took the clothes to her room along with cabir... and arranged them in her cupboard... and as she was doing this... cabir was helping her...just then... nandini woke up with a jerk... as she again saw that same dream... again those words were roaming in her mind...!! Then she looked around...
Alya and cabir... saw her like this and alya offered her water... which she took and drank in one go...!! And then she registered her surroundings finally...!! Her room was changed...!! She was looking around... and tried to stand and then cabir helped her in standing...!! She was still looking around... her room was looking more bright now...then she finally came near the mirror...!!
She was standing numb... there... not looking in the mirror... !! As she was not able to... look into it ...!! Cabir saw this then he came and stood beside her... and kept his hand on her shoulder...!! And said...
Cabir: Kya hua...!!! Look naa... look at urself...!! U only said naa that u r happy the way u r...!! Aur ek khush insaan kabhi apne aap se nazare nai churata...!! So look at urself in the mirror...!! ( saying so cabir moved her face with his hand and made her look at herself in the mirror...)
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So here I end this part...!! I know again suspense...!! Till the next update keep thinking what will be her reaction...??? Will she allow them to heal her...?? And if she allows then... Will they be able to heal her...??? Don't forget to think about whose words haunt nandini in her sleep...?? Are they manik's words...??
Will be waiting for ur response...!!
AMAAYA...😊😊
Shiv Shakti
