Part 10 -
Saying Goodbye
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(do read the song lyrics, as they are meaningful to the storyline and characters feelings! they convey what the particular character is feeling! - well maybe notsomuch muski and anji, but AR yea...)
Riddhima sighed looking in the mirror. This wasn't how she had planned her life, not at all. And though everyone claimed she looked beautiful, she knew that was a pure lie. She was dressed in her clothes for the sangeet. Her outfit was indeed what one could call beautiful, but her bulging belly made her look like a cow, thus ruining the outfit. But none of that was important anyway. What was missing was that twinkle in her eye, the glow on her face, and the smile on her lips. She could try and fake it all she wants, but it wasn't real. The pain in her heart couldn't be hidden by a mere forced smile.
She didn't see the point of the entire marriage anymore. It was all pointless, and Sid knew that. They would NEVER live a happy married life together. It just wasn't possible. She couldn't even try to love him or give him a chance, even if she wanted to. Her heart belonged to Armaan whether he wanted it or not. Riddhima put on her forced smile as Anjali and Muskaan came into her room all excited.
"Ridzi, you look great! WOW! Sid is one lucky bast**d!" Riddhima shook her head. "Nahin, shayad one very unlucky guy rather Muski. Marrying a girl who is 8 monthes pregnant with another man's child? Marrying a girl who doesn't love him?" Anjali and Muskaan gasped. "Kya? You don't love? We knew it was arranged, par Muski and I assumed you felt sparks! Toh why are you marrying him?"
Riddhima sighed. "You guys didn't think I'd be that much of a flake did you? start the school year dating Abhi, got preggy with Armaan's child, moved in with him, moved out few monthes after aur getting married to Sid? Nahin. I don't love Sid. I don't feel sparks either, never did - not for him. I..I don't even really know why i am getting married anymore. Pehle I said yes, hoping someone would stop me. Then well..when I realized that wasn't going to happen, toh I gave up aur at one point I tried to justify to myself that by doing this, marrying Sid - I'd be giving Sanjana a stable family life. Par deep down, I knew that was also just an excuse - a way to convince myself. Even I don't know why I am marrying Sid anymore. Par Sid knows everything. And despite my strange feelings, he is okay with it and would like to pursue this marriage."
Anjali and Muskaan looked at Riddhima shocked and confused. "So why go through with it now? It's not too late. We can help you now! There is still time to say no" Riddhima shook her head. "Nahin Muski. I am going to continue with this marriage. It still is a sense of security for Sanjana although I have complete faith in Armaan. Also it's Sid's dream. I want to continue this marriage and all the functions as if we are a normal happy couple. I owe Sid at least that much." Anjali nodded. "Theek hai Ridz. We will do everything we can to help. Right Muski?" Muskaan nodded. "Haan. That's why we three are sisters haina?"
Riddhima smiled, "Haan, we are sisters, aren't we?" Anjali smiled and the three got together in a group hug wiping each others tears.
Muskaan seperated from the hug and smiled. "Acha chal everyone is waiting on us, and here we are getting all senti and mushy! Koi dekhlega toh sochega ki hum teeno mein kuch na kuch chal raha hai. Mera toh badnaam hojayega! Actually not bad actually. Phir I can sing - Muski badnaam hui darling teri liye!" Muskaan pointed towards Ridz as she sang and did a very good copy of Malika's famous munni dance. Riddhima couldn't help but laugh at Muskaan's antics.
"Ouch!" Riddhima held her stomach suddenly and closed her eyes. "Hey Ridz kya hua? dard hua?" Riddhima nodded. "haan par don't worry. I'm okay. woh bus suddenly thora sa dard hua, par i'm okay." Anjali looked more skeptical than muskaan who believed Riddhima easily. "Are you sure Ridz? Why do I get the feeling like you are hiding something more from us?" Riddhima looked at Anji, "nahin babe your reading too much into it. No worries. Hakuna Matata okay?" Anji nodded. "Hakuna Matata babe." Muski smiled at her best friends. This is why they loved each other so much, no matter what, they were all still babies at heart. They held hands and slowly began to go downstairs.
Unlike most sangeets, this wasn't just a ladies sangeet. Guys were invited as well. As Riddhima descended clad in her green and cream lahenga choli, her eyes searched for one man. Passing over the eager glances of Sid and the others, her eyes found that one man her heart yearned for, Armaan. He was handing Rahul an envelope of some sort, but suddenly turned and met her eyes. With a quick glance and smile she saw him turn back to Rahul. That's when she knew it was certain - despite false claims, she did NOT look beautiful.
After a few announcements, Armaan asked Sid to sing Riddhima a romantic song, "lekin here's the catch - ridz has to sing back, but in antakshari style!" Sid and Riddhima looked at Armaan shocked. Sid spoke up, "Nahin Nahin! I can't! Acha lekin Armaan you do it!If you loved Riddhima, toh what would you sing?"
Armaan looked at Ridz for a moment then begun singing.
Tere Naam Hum Ne Kiya Hai Jeevan Aapna Sara Sanam
Ho Jeevan Aapna Sara Sanam
Pyaar Bahut Karte Hai Tumse Ishq Hai Tu Humara Sanam
Ho Ishq Hai Tu Humara Sanam
La La La La La La Lala La La La La
La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La
Tere Ishq Ne Saathiya Tera Haal Kya Kardiya
Tere Ishq Ne Saathiya Tera Haal Kya Kardiya
Gulshan Bhi To Ab Veerana Lagta Hai
Har Aapna Hum Ko Begana Lagta Hai
Hum Teri Yaadon Mein Khoye Rehte Hai
Log Hume Pagal Deewana Kehte Hai
Tere Bina Tere Bina
Tere Bina Naamumkin Hai Zindagi Ka Guzara Sanam
Ho Zindagi Ka Guzara Sanam
Riddhima sighed as Armaan sang walking around her. How she wished he meant these words. How she wished it was for her. She could tell the emotions were real, but for who? She closed her eyes and pictured Armaan, then begun singing.
mera dil bhi kitna pagal hai
ye pyar jo tum se karta hai
par saamne jab tum aate ho, kuch bhi kehne se darta hai
o mere saajan, o mere saajan, saajan saajan, mere saajan
mera dil bhi kitna pagal hai
kitna isko samajhata hu, kitna isko behlata hu
naadaan hai kuch na samajhata hai, din raat ye aahen bharta hai
mera dil bhi kitna pagal hai
har pal mujhko tadpata hai, mujhe saari raat jagata hai
is baat ki tumko khabar nahi, ye sirf tumhi pe marta hai
mera dil bhi kitna pagal hai
Everyone looked at Riddhima shocked. The emotions were so real, everyone felt their eyes welling up, but Armaan's choice of song, didn't help much afterwards.
ishq leta hai kaise imtihaan
ishq me jiyu ,ishq me maroo
ishq hi mera bhagwan
haii rabba tu hi meri jaan tu hi jahaan
tu hi meri manzil
tere ishq me main qurbaan
ishq mein deewangi ki had se guzar jau
tere pyaar me aaj main jee kar mar jau
ishq mein jalte hain hum raat din haaan
ye mera dil na maane tere bin -2
ishq leta hai kaise imtihaain
ishq me jiyu ,ishq mein maroo
ishq hi mera bhagwan
haii rabba tu hi meri jaan tu hi jahan
tu hi meri manzil tere ishq mein main qurbaan
sama rahi hai ye jism-o-jaan mein
chali jayegi jaan is imtihaan mein
ab mujhko hai malum ki tu hi mera junoon
ab tu hi mera rab-zindagi tujh se hi mera sakoon
ishq leta hai kaise imtihaan
ishq mein jiyu ,ishq me maroo
ishq hi mera bhagwan
haii rabba tu hi meri jaan tu hi jahhan
tu hi meri manzil tere ishq me main qurbaan
Riddhima looked at Armaan fighting tears that were bound to come out any time. She could tell Armaan was hurt too, but why? Who had hurt him? Why was he hurting? She sighed and put up a fake smile as Sid came and placed his arm around her waist.
As if sensing her dispair, Anji and Muski began whispering. Then Muski came out and began singing while dancing around and pointing towards Riddhima.
Muski badnaam hui, darling tere liye - 3 times
Muski ke gaal gulabi, nain sharabi, chaal nawabi re
Le zandu balm hui, darling tere liye
Muski badnaam hui, darling tere liye
Muski ke gaal gulabi, nain sharabi, chaal nawabi re
Le zandu balm hui, darling tere liye - 2 times
Muski badnaam hui, darling tere liye - 2 times
Muskaan managed to successfully bring a smile onto everyone's faces with her antics, but they were not done yet. Her song continued into a different tune as she danced towards Anji.
Muski:
Kaisa sharmana aaja nach ke dikha de
Aa meri hole aaja parda gira de
Aa meri akiyon se akiyan mila le
Aa tu na nakhre dikhaa
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ho ooh ooh hoo
Anji was no less, she began singing and dancing back leaving both Rahul and Atul stupified.
Kaisa sharmana tujhe nach ke dikha doon
Mera ho jaye jo mein parda gira doon
Aa tujhe akhiyon mein apne basaa loon
Aa tu na nakhre dikhaa
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Wanna be my chammak challo... oh oh oh [x4]
Riddhima laughed seeing her friends dance away with no need of the guys. She smiled knowing they had done this purposefully to improve her mood. They don't know that she loves Armaan, but they do know she doesnt love Sid.
Riddhima looked around and realized that Armaan was no longer in sight. She sighed wondering where he was. She looked around and spotted Billy and Anaya whispering about something. They seemed to be slightly upset. She walked over to them slowly.
"Uncle, Aunty? Armaan kaha hai? Aur are you both okay?" Billy and Anaya looked at each other for a second before Billy replied. "Haan, we are okay. And actually armaan's cousin is in the hospital na? toh he just went there. He didn't want to damper anyone's mood here so he left silently."
Riddhima nodded though she knew there was more to it then that.
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