Though meera was physically And mentally strained but her mind was repeating all the flashback scenes from next after their marriage.. But one scene of her past made her heart ache even though it happend years ago
3 years 11 months ago
Khan farmhouse, Bhopal highway
Room was filled with darkness but the slight early morning rays were peeking through the window. The highly furnished room was adored with vases, lamps and even sculptures.
One figure on the bed was lost in peacefulness of sleep while other was cherishing their love.
Meera whose head was rested on the bare chest of asad was glowing after their love making while asad was resting his tired body after a night of love. Yes yesterday night they consummated their marriage. They became one soul from two bodies. Meera relishing the nights moments was beaming with happiness . Her dream has come true she was in the arms of the man she love. Grinning she hugged asad and placed a kiss on his bare chest near his heart.
While asad who was asleep stirred with some disturbance on his chest and feeling the weight on his body he shifted himself to engulf the weight.
Feeling his arms around meera grinned and hugged him more tightly while asad on feeling the tight grip and warm body next to his snapped open his eyes to face meera who was blushing. Blushing meera lowered her eyes while asad was confused seeing their closeness. Jerking he moved away from the hug and scanned the surroundings and finding himself naked with meera on bed his temper increased.
While meera who was happy few moments ago became tensed seeing his reaction. Covering herself properly with the sheet she sits on the bed when asad gazes her with his dark intense gaze. A gaze full of anger, hatred. His blue emotionless eyes which always used to bore into her has developed a emotion hatred and anger which was far different from yesterday emotions. Last night his eyes were filled with care, tenderness, love and passion but now they were filled with loath, hatred and anger. In these 5 months of marriage asad eyes were emotionless whenever he faced meera but last night everything changed and now to everything changed but in a way which was unexpected.
Meera imagined that she would be treated with cuddles, care ,love, sweet talks but her illusion was broken with his one word
Asad :::: I guess tumne woh hasil kardiay joh tum barson se chahthi thi
Listing to this meera frowned but somewhere deep inside her body stired with unknown fear
Asad chuckled seeing her confused face, but his laugh had no humor only sarcasm and bitterness
Asad ::: kya hua aisi kyun dekh rahi ho jaise tum kuch janti Nahi yaa phir tum masoom Ho.
Meera opened her mouth to ask what he was talking about but his next words broke her completely
Asad ::: itne saalon se tum mujhe chahthi ho aur akhir khar tumne kal mujhe hasil karliya. Kyun??? Itne mahinon se joh mere ammi ke samne tumne sharif hone ka natak kiya woh kaal tooth hi gaya. Kaal raat mujhe akele dekh khar tumne apni chaal chaldi. Abh chah kar bhi Main iss nikaah ko todh nahi sakta. Abh taumar mujhe iss jhoote rishte ko nibhana hoga. Tum Main zara bhi haya, sharam nahi hai na, joh insaan tumhari behen se pyaar karta hai tumne uss insaan se shaadi ki aur toh aur uss insaan ke saath raat guzari. Tumne ne toh iski bhi parwaah Nahi ki Main tumse nafrat karta hoon. Ghin aati hai mujhe tumhe dekh ke. Aur sach batana kya zoya sach Main kudh nikaah se baagh gayi yaa phir tumne usse jaan bujke bhagaya kuch galat baatein batake. U disgust me
Spatting his words asad moved from the bed without caring that he was naked. Cursing her under his breath he got dressed And without sparing a glance he Moved out of the farmhouse not caring about her safety.
Meera who was happy few minutes ago now felt ashamed of herself for giving in. His every word echoed in her ear. His hatred,bitterness and loath will haunt her forever as a nightmare. Feeling ashamed and hurt she clears her tears which were flowing continuously and moving from bed she moved to get dressed. After dressing in a black Saree she moved into the room which only remined her of yesterday's night. His words ""aap bahauth pyaari hai, aur khoobsuart itni ki dil pe gher kargai, kya mujhe aapko choone ki izzazat hai, kya aap kushi kushi aapne aap ko mujhe saupenge ". His every word echoed in her ears feeling frustrated she closed her ears and closing her eyes she shaked her head vigoursly as in trying to Kill the memories but poor girl was not aware that the memories were not only implanted in her brain but also in her soul which can never be deleted..
Clearing her vigorously she moved to dressing table when her eyes landed on the bed sheet which was covered with light red stains. And seeing it she sobs falling on her knees cursing her Fate
Meera ::: kya galti hai meri. Kyun itna dard MIL raha hai mujhe. Bas maine uss insaan ko chaha joh mujhse nafrat karta hai leking uss ek galti ke liye kitni saja milegi mujhe aur.
Crying her heart out she traces the sheet feeling which marked the evidence of their union, their bonding, their consummation.
Meera ::: kya unkeliye iski koi ehmiyat nahi hai.
Sobbing again she clears her tears to face the life. Meera was never a quitter no matter what the situation was she was always ready to face it head on . If asad thinks that she's an oppourtunitist his misconceptions had to be cleared. There was no way she was ever going to give up on their marriage. Barcing herself she moved out to reach KV on her own because she knows asad will never come back here now.
After reaching Kv she was greeted with dilshaad and najma who were in hall having their lunch. Taking with them she had her lunch. Even though she felt miserable but she didn't show it a bit on her face. Having her lunch she moved to her room to take rest citing head ache as a reason to dilshaad. Meera moved to her room which was the guest room. After their marriage asad reacted violently to meeras presence in his room since then she shifted to guest room and remained there while dilshaad didn't interfere thinking they needed some time to forget the past and carry on with present. Though she was worried internally seeing their formal relation and just prayed that it gets better with time
After taking a few hours sleep meera was feeling freshed. Last night she didn't sleep because she was basking in their lovemaking glow as their night thoughts reached her brain she smiled but the smile was replaced with sigh remembering the morning events shaking her head she moved out of the room to face the situation.
Moving to the living room she saw asad sitting on the couch with concerned face which made her alerted seeing him. Gulping she moved further but her steps froze seeing the scene
On the large sofa dilshaad was seated on one side while najma on other but in middle zoya was seated weeping and her head placed in dilshaad lap. Seeing meera dilshaad was worried while zoya who was weeping on seeing meera ran towards her and hugged her tightly sobbing.
Meera who was stunned with event was taken aback by zoyas loud sobs forgetting everything she rubbed zoyas back to sooth her but meeras eyes automatically landed on asad who fisted his hands feeling helpless on hearing zoyas cries.
Somewhere meeras insides worried for her marriage. The sudden presence of zoya awakend her fears for her marriage. At this point of their marriage zoyas arrival was a threat and after mornings encounter with asad meera was clearly aware that asad stilled loved zoya. Meera prayed that zoyas arrival should be only a union with her family .
Siding her thoughts she calmed zoya. Making her comfortable on the couch meera moved to the kitchen for water. After calming and soothing zoya everyone was waiting for her reason of arrival.
Seated beside zoya meera was holding her hands to support her sister. No matter what happend meera can never forget that zoya is her sister you can call twins because only time difference between them was 1 hour. Meera was 1 hour elder to zoya. Both were born on the same day in same hospital in different rooms to different mother but their bond was more special and pure than any blood siblings.
Meera ::: zoya rona bandh karo aur batao kya hua. Tum aise achanak sabh teekh haina. Kya tum maasi maasu se milne aayi ho. Aur rehaan kaha hai tum akeli kyun aayi ho
Listening to meera zoya hugged her but on mention of rehaans name her cries knew no bound while asad glared meera as in accusing her for making zoya cry and bringing rehaans name but meera ignored him completely because right now if anything is important to her than its only her baby sister zoya. She needs to know the cause of zoyas pain so she can mend it. Rubbing zoyas back she whispers
Meera ::: zoe meri baat suno aghar tum hume kuch nahi bataogi toh hum tumhari Help kaise karenge. Tum dard Main Ho hum smajhteh hai lekin aisa bina koi baat bataye rone se sirf tumhe hi nahi hume bhi taqleef hogi so please baat kya hai batao. Listening to meera dilshaad to nods. She is happy for zoyas return but her eyes carried concerned worry which did not escape from meeras eyes
Moving out from the hug zoya clears her face and bracing a brave face she speaks up.
Zoya ::: maine rehaan ko chod diya.
Listening to this ground shook under everyone's feet.
Zoya ::: maine aapne apnon ko chodke kissi gher pe barosa kiya aur uski saja mujhe mili hai
Lifting her head she gazes asad with slightly simmering eyes who was stunned with intense look in her eyes while meera was bewildered with zoyas words and the eye exchanged between asya.
Zoya ::: rehaan ka pyaar uski baatein woh sabh jootha tha. Woh mujhse mohabaath nahi karta. Woh kya kehteh hai sirf time pass kar raha tha mere saath.
Listening to it asad gripped the couch Handel tightly that his knuckles whitened which was not unnoticed by meera.
Zoya ::: uske liye nikaah koi maine nahi rakti . Woh sirf apna maan baar raha tah mere saath aur jabh uska maan bhaar gaya toh woh woh
Feeling the ache in her heart zoya cried again. Whose shoulder shook with the intensity of her sobs. Circling her shoulder meera gripped them
Meera ::: aur woh kya zoya. Kya kiya usne
Instead of answering zoya pressed her lips together which somewhere made meera fear thinking that something bad might have happened to her sister so she insisted zoya to speak up so that she can know what happend and act against rehaan if he had done any physical abuse against zoya. So she forced zoya to speak up .
But her persuasion was mistook by asad who thought that meera was hurting zoya wantedly. And on top of that listening to zoya cries and her denial made him loose his temper.
Asad ::::: Bass
Hearing to his high pitch roar everyone was stunned and zoya who was weeping was frozen on seeing his blood shot eyes glaring at meera.
Asad :::: tabse zoya tumhe mana kar rahi hai tumhe samaj mein nahi aata. Kyun unhe force kar rahi ho. Unhe dilasa dene ke vajai unhe aur rula rahi ho.
Lsiteing to it meera felt hurt. She was interfering because she was worried for her sister, because she what to know if anything bad happend with her, she what to know how her sister spent her days away from her family but no instead of understanding of her POV asad as always blamed her
Asad ::: doosron ki life main interfere karna kabh Band karogi
Raising from his seat he moved towards her with fisted hand when dilshaad stooped him in middle
Dilshaad ::: asad yeh kaunsa tarika hota hai apni begun se baat karne ka. Yeh mat bhulo ki zoya meera ki behen hai aghar yeha pe zoya ke uppar Aghar kisika haq banta hai toh woh sirf meera ka hai. Agar woh aapni behen se puch rahi hai ki baat kya hai usmein kya galat hai
Asad ::: ammi waha zoya roye jaa rahi aur yeh usse dilasa dene ki bajaye aur woh saabh baatein puchke choth pahucha rahi hai
Dilshad::: yeh maat bhulo ki zoya ne kudh usse chuna tha, aur abh usse kudhi yeh saabh suljana hai, woh kudh ghar chodke gayi hai aapni maan mutabik zindagi jeene ke liye abh aghar koi Musibat ayi hai toh uski zinmedar zoya kudh hai
Listening to it everyone was shocked because dilshaad was a very understanding mother But now seeing her in such serious mode and listening to her harsh tone shock was small world. Najma who was quiet during entire convo was torn between meera and zoya. Yeah she likes zoya and after knowing that her bhaijaan loves her najma adored zoya even more but that was past now at present she respects and loves meera and only want meera in her bhaijaans life. But sudden appearance of zoya did fired her fear for meera and asad marriage . The marriage which never took off but is on the verge of falling apart with appearance of past.
Listening to dilshaad words asad was stunned but ignoring her he took broken zoya with him to another guest room not before glaring meera .
Seeing his overprotectiveness dilshaad sighed and left for her room followed by najma but none was able to predict the heart which broke into millions of pieces. Meera was happy that zoya is back but she was not ready to accept her arrival at the cost of her marriage .
At night after preparing for dinner meera was arranging the plates on table lost in her thoughts when was spun around without warning by asad
Asad ::::: tumhe joh karna tha tumne bahauth pehle hi kardiya zoya ko nikaah se bhaga kaar abh aghar tum zoya ke pass bhi dikhi na mujhse bura....
Asad was lashing out at meera with hatred in his voice ignoring her hurt eyes but was stooped in middle by dilshaad voice
Dilshaad :::: asad. Meera se tumhari baadtameezi roj roj baadh rahi hai
Listening to her voice asad turned around while meera vanished into the kitchen
Asad ::: ammi Main sirf
Dilshaad raised her hands to stop him
Dilshaad :::: dekho asad main sirf itna kehna chahthi hoon abh tumhari shaadi ho chuki hai issiliye zoya se dhoor raho. Usse sambal ne keliye hum sabh hai. Aur zoya koi choti bachi Nahi hai joh usse sahi aur galat main farq nazar naa aye. Aur Tum ek baat kabhi mat bhoolna zoya tumhara bita hua kal hai zindagi tumhari aaj Main koi jhaga nahi hai. Aur meera tumhara aaj aur kaal. Yeh baat jitni jaldi samaj loge utna hi behthar hoga hum sab keliye
Listening to her asad just nooded while meera who heard everything just prayed that asad understood it.
Dinner was quiet with only dilshaad, meera and najma at dining table as asad and zoya were having their dinner inside zoya As in guest room .
After cleaning the dishes meera was heading for her room when she heard giggles from zoyas room. As the door was ajar she peeked inside to see zoya and asad laughing whole heartedly. Seeing it ached her heart thinking asad was and can never be this happy with her. It was only zoya who can bring this cheerful side from him. Gripping her aching heart she moved to her room to retire from this tiring day.
Days passed with zoya staying with the khan's as zeenat and anwar shifted to NY after Nani death which happend 3 months ago. Dilshaad wanted to inform zeenat and anwar about zoya but asad declined her thinking it will only cause more emotional burden on zoya which resulted in argument between asad and dilshaad .
Zoya became her bubbly self with passage of days and no one was able to enquire further about her and rehaans story as asad strictly warned them. Asad was back to his self with zoyas arrival. But the thing which changed most was meera. Her sisters arrival has caused her insides flinch and worry, the girl who never gave up on her marriage even after asad harsh words began thinking of her decision and was somewhere convinced that she took a wrong step on agreeing for marriage as love can never be forced it can only happen.
Dilshaad on the other hand was happy with zoyas arrival but was not with the way asad zoya were heading. Meera was feeling shattered it was clearly visible on her face and asad was going far away from her with zoyas arrival. Everyday dilshaad used to argue with asad seeing his closeness with zoya who abandons her worries saying that he's with zoya as she needs a friend at this phase but the argument intensifies with mention of meera leaving a quarrelling mother and son duo.
Meera who witnessed mother son duo felt bad. Not only this argument many things changed between her and asad. Whenever she goes near him to serve his food his entire body stiffens previously he used avoid her existence but now he acknowledges it but with loath as his words from the farmhouse still haunts her. Whenever she sees zoya holding asad hands she's felt the pang. The softness which she want to see in asad eyes were only expressed for zoya. During all these days whenever asad encounters zoya he either glares her or just avoids her without even sparing a glance which caused a unmendable ache in her heart. And seeing him spending his time only with zoya shook her strong intentions to fight for their marriage
Like this 1 month has passed but the exact next day was the day meera can never forget as it was day on which she took the first step for her future.
It was morning after having the breakfast everyone retired to their works. Dilshaad went out of town in morning for her friends place and would be returning next day najma went for her college seminar in Mumbai by last nights flight and zoya was taking a nap in her room. Asad went to his room to do some office work since zoyas return he didn't go to office but was handling the work from home meera after cleaning the dining area And kitchen went to talk to zoya as asad always interrupted her time with zoya.
Pacing across the living area she reached the room but what she heard made her heart stop.
Zoya ::: main aapse bahauth mohabaath karti hoon Mr Khan. Shayad iska ehsaas mujhe tabh hua jabh Main aapse dur chalegayi thi. Mujhe laga rehaan ki dosti muhabaath hai per galath thi main muhabaath main hum aapne nahi apne pyaar ke baare mein sochteh hai jaisa apne kiya. Aap mere liye phoophi se lad gaye mujhe bachane ke liye yeh bhi nahi socha ki aapke aur phoophi ke bich ka ristha kharab Ho raha hai. Yehi toh mohabaath hai Mr khan. Aur aaj mujhe aapki mohabaath ki mayne smaja aane lage hai.
Moving she hugs asad who was frozen initially but even too reciprocates the hug but what he spoke broke meera completely
Asad ::: hum bhi aapse mohabath karte hai zoya beintehaan aur beyhaad
Note ::: so guys this is it I'll write next part only after I get a good response, approx 10 likes, if there are no readers than I'll discontinue my stories