Chapter 2
Armaan hits the breaks hard right outside Shilpa’s house. She finally found the courage and asked him carefully, “tum thik toh ho na, Armaan?” Armaan scoffed in response and looked at her. He gave her smile that wasn’t at all convincing. He replied, “I’ll be fine. Shayad Kuch din akele rahunga toh sabke liye acha hoga.” Shilpa looked sadly at him and spoke, “Armaan, tum akele nahi ho” Armaan looked at her angrily, making Shilpa unsure whether to continue or not..she hesitated “Woh..umm..mera matlab hai.. tumhare saare dost..” Armaan cut her off with a sarcastic smile, “it’s fine Shilpa. I’ll be okay”. Shilpa nodded still unsurely but said, “good night Armaan” abs got out of the car. She stood in the driveway till Armaan’s car was out of sight. She looked up at sky and said in a pained voice, “please Kaanaji, uske saath rehna” she closed her eyes and prayed.
As Sid and Riddhima’s wedding preparations were going on in a full swing, Armaan heart was breaking with the same intensity. Why does love have to hurt so much?! Armaan wondered. He kept thinking about all his and Riddhima’s moments together. It was like it was all in a constant loop in his head. The more he imagined Riddhima and Sid together, the more numb he felt. He wondered what he had ever done to deserve so much pain in his life. Would there ever be any happiness for him? Did God even ever consider him when writing his destiny? He cried his heart out. He was so tired. Tired of love, tired of life. Should he just give up?! All these various thoughts ran in his head.
His head hit the pillow and he closed his eyes. How should he stop this pain?! His hand grabbed the sheets as he yelled out aloud. He sat up straight and spoke out loud, “I want you to be happy, Riddhima. That’s all I ever wanted. And if this is what you want..then I’ll be okay” who was he kidding though. He got out of his bed again and started pacing in his room. When his eyes fell on the dream journal he had found in Panchgani. To take his mind off things, he decided to read it.
“Hi Kaanaji, kal raat mujhe woh trunk wala sapna aaya. I hate that trunk Kaanaji. Patah nahi mujhe mummy papa hamesha usme lock kyun karte the. Jab bhi mein meri aankhein band karti hoon, kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hai, ki main ussi trunk mein hoon. Aisa lagta hai, jaise meri saansien rukh gayi ho. Aur mere haath pair jaise kaam nahi karte. Kal jab me bathroom mein thi aur lights chali gayyi thi, mujhe phirse uss trunk mein hone ka ehsaas hua. Yeh kab band hoga Kaanaji? Mein aisa feel nahi karna chahti. Mujhe khush rehna hai Kaanaji. Bohot khush.”
After reading this Armaan was in deep thought again. He closed his eyes and placed the diary on his heart. His hand still clutching it. He was sitting outside in the garden. “Kash main tumhara har dukh door kar pata.”
He didn’t know why but he felt an unknown connection with this person. Like two kindred souls. He knew what it meant to feel pain, but this kind of pain that this girl endured was nothing he could ever imagine. He just wanted to be able to reach out his hand and wipe away her tears. He knew she cried when she wrote. It was evident on the pages which were smeared with tear drops. He opened the diary again and lightly ran his fingers against the writings. Trying to take away the pain poured out onto the pages. He only wished he could do it for real.
Unknowingly every time Armaan had immersed himself in this girls life, he had for that moment forgotten about his pain.
To be continued..
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Aju @ajuswa19
+ 5
3 years ago
So sweet I wish the story has been like this!
Rimzzz02 @Rimzzz02
3 years ago
I'm loving this whole diary thing yaar.. Cause of it he's feeling connection with Shilpa and I'm so glad you focused on her back story. How I wish dmg me bhi shilpa ki back story unfold hoti.. Hopefully Armaan find out soon that shilpa's diary..
Aaaaa90 @Aaaaa90
3 years ago
Wow. Loved the parts. Shilpa ka past life is link which will bring them closer maybe. Waiting for next part
KaSh821 @KaSh821
3 years ago
I hope armaan ko jldi pta chale ki ye Shilpa ki diary hai...😐
AsadZoyaILU @AsadZoyaILU
+ 2
3 years ago
cant wait for him to find out that shilpas diary
Rash111 @Rash111
3 years ago
Armaan is kind hearted so he feels everyones pain as his own and this girl's pain is like a surgical pain for him. He forgets his own when he feels hers.