Chapter 23

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NoeticLife

@NoeticLife

CHAPTER 23

OF MISUNDERSTANDINGS AND DATES

Sid leaned over the parapet, staring at the distant lights from the city.

'Tu kahan chala gaya tha? Maine tujhe kitna dhoonda.'

'Main hamesha tera dhyaan rakhunga.'

'Ab dekh, Champ. Yeh chhota baby teri zimmedaari hai. Iska dhyaan rakhna.'

'Tu m-mujhe kabhi n-nahi chodhkar j-jaayega, na?'

'Tu kahan chala gaya tha? Maine tujhe kitna dhoonda.'

"Siddharth?" He looked over his shoulder. Sanju. He wordlessly turned back. "Tu abhi tak Monami ke laane pareshaan hogo? Woh theek hai."

He hummed in acknowledgement. She sighed.

"Siddharth..."

"Mujhe baat nahi karni hai", he muttered.

"Chhoti si baat ke laane itna pareshaan naa ho."

His gaze lifted. "Aapke liye woh chhoti si baat hogi, ma'am. Meri liye nahi hai."

She sighed. "Siddharth, tu chhoti si baat ko zaroorat se zyaada badha raho hai. Itni gambhir baat bhi naa hai. Monami theek toh hogo ab. Kaa zaroorat hai itna dukhi hone ki?"

His eyebrows pulled together. His jaw clenched, before he took a deep breath. "Main kyun, kab, kaise react kar raha hoon, aapne bina samjhe hi yeh declare kar diya ki meri feelings insignificant hain?"

"Hum yeh bilkul naa keh raho hain", she said. "Hum sirf itna keh raho hain ki Monami theek hai ab. Tujhe itni tension lene ki zaroorat naa hai."

He shook his head. "Baat yeh nahi hai ki Monami theek hai ya nahi. Baat yeh hai..." He paused, staring at her. "Are you even interested in understanding my feelings? Kyunki aapne toh usse pehle hi declare kar diya ki main overreact kar raha hoon."

She scowled. "Hum par bhadakne ki koi zaroorat naa hai. Hum sirf isliye aaye the kyunki tera mood achha naa tha."

He looked away. He took a deep breath. "Mujhe thodi der akele rehna hai." He shoved his hands in his pockets, walking off.

She didn't call after him.

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"Aaj toh tu badhi khush lag rahi hai", Suman ji said, smiling at Koel. "Kya baat hai?"

She shrugged, shaking her head. "Kuchh nahi. Bas aise hi mood achha hai. Aaj Saturday hai, na? Finally, hafta khatam hua."

"#Right", Chitra said happily. "Hafta khatam. Aaj half day aur kal #holiday hai. Yay."

Monami bit into the toast, tilting her head as she stared at Sid. He had his head down, chewing his toast disinterestedly. She nudged him lightly. He glanced up. Her eyebrows pulled together in a questioning glance but he just sighed in response.

"Abhi thodi der mein batata hoon. Akele mein", he muttered. She nodded. Her gaze fell on Koel, who was quieter than usual as well, but unlike Sid's droopy frown, she had a small, content smile.

Monami eyed her silently, absentmindedly listening to the cadets. Koel peeked at someone, her smile widening. Monami followed her gaze, finding Faizi looking at her too. She tilted her head. What? Did she miss something? They were friends, that everyone knew, but she had never seen Koel sneaking glances at him like that.

'Faizi Sir, aap... mere saath dance karoge?'

'Aap hume dance ke liye puchhe aur hum manaa kar dein? Aisa kaise ho sakta hai?'

'Yeh kya chal raha hai? Maine kuchh miss kar diya kya?'

She glanced at Karan. Did he find it weird too? He was typing something on his phone. He glanced up suddenly when Faizi said something and the two glanced at Koel. Karan rolled his eyes, shaking his head. His gaze lifted to Monami's, meeting her eyes. She quickly turned away, dropping her head. She winced.

'Buddhu', she scolded herself. 'Aise mat dekha kar kisi ko bhi. Pata nahi kya sochne lagenge. Teri curiosity ke chakkar mein koi tujhe creepy, psycho bhooth hi naa samajh le. Waise creepy, psycho samajh sakte hain Karan Sir par bhooth toh nahi samjhenge. Unhe toh bhoothon par vishwaas nahi hai, na? Khadoos kahin ke. Achhe waale bhooth ki existence ko dismiss kar rahe the. Unke saamne toh achha bhooth bhi offend ho kar bura bankar hi aayega.'

Her gaze lifted to Koel, who smiled to herself, sneaking another glance at Faizi.

'Par yahan toh kuchh chal raha hai. Faizi Sir toh friendly hi hain, par Koel... aisa behave nahi karti.' She smiled slightly. They looked cute together.

Her curiosity sated, she turned her attention back to Sid. He still didn't make an effort to even pretend to listen. His mostly uneaten toast laid on the plate, and he pushed it around with a finger, chasing it around the plate. Monami nudged him again and he lifted his gaze again.

"Khaane par gussa nahi hote", she muttered. "Khaana tujhse gussa ho gaya, na, phir vomit karta rahega."

Monami shook her head, pushing the plate away. She turned away, staring quietly outside the window. Sid huffed. 'Oye, Moti Billi', he said sternly. 'Khaane par gussa nahi hote. Khaana tujhse gussa ho gaya, na, phir vomit karti rahegi. Chal, chup chaap kha le.' She sighed, picking up the plate.

Sid smiled slightly. "Mera dialogue mujhi par?"

She shrugged. "Recycle and reuse?"

He chuckled. He gulped down the rest of his toast with his coffee in two huge bites, standing up. Monami frowned. 'Itni bhi jaldi nahi khaana tha. Isne toh jaadugar ki tarah khaana gayab kar diya.' She quickly finished her own breakfast, gulping down her coffee and rushing out after him.

He was on the terrace.

"Chal", she said, walking up to him. "Bolna shuru kar."

"Mera aur Sanju ma'am ka jhagda ho gaya", he said, crossing his arms.

"Kis baat par?"

He sighed, narrating the tale quickly. She hummed. She sat down on the parapet, swinging her legs over. She patted the spot next to her. He leaned over, looking down before backing away. "Zyaada upar hai", he muttered. She twisted her body, leaning against the pillar.

"Tune Sanju ma'am ko yeh bataaya ki tujhe bura kyun laga?"

He shook his head. "Unhe farak padta? Unhe meri feelings se koi matlab nahi hai."

"Nahi padta farak, toh unhe yeh bhi nahi farak padta ki tera mood kharaab tha. Isliye hi aaye the, na, tere paas, kyunki tera mood kharaab tha?"

"Par aakar toh yeh hi kaha, na, ki main overreact kar raha hoon?" Sid said.

"Toh tune bhi toh dhang se yeh baat explain nahi kari, na, ki tu kyun upset hai?" She titled her head slightly. "Sid... Sanju ma'am tujhe sirf ek mahine se jaante hain. Woh teri feelings ko bina blole thodi naa samajh jaayenge."

He looked down, fidgeting with his bracelet. He sighed, leaning against the parapet. "Par..."

"Par kya?" She tugged on his arm and he looked up. "Tu aur Bala, aur tu aur Koel, bhi toh dost hai, na? Tu bina kahe kya unki har baar samajhta hai?" He shook his head. "Yeh bhi toh ho sakta hai, na, ki kabhi tujhe jo baat insignificant lag raha hai, woh unke liye bahut significant ho."

"Par woh yeh baat toh kam se kam puchh sakti hai, na, ki itna sad kyun tha?"

"Tu khud unko ideal response nahi de raha aur unse expect karta hai ki woh tujhe ideal response de?" She hit his arm a little. "Tu kyun yeh soch raha hai ki unhe yeh kehna chahiye tha, ya woh kehna chahiye tha. Tu unki intention dekh, na? Tu sad tha aur woh tujhe happy karna chahte the."

He hummed. He sighed, nodding. "Meri galti hai, phir?"

She smiled a little. "Baat galti ki nahi hai. Baat sirf samajhne ki hai. Tujhe sirf itna samajhna hai ki tu Sanju ma'am se thoda sa zyaada expect karne laga hai. Jitna zyaada tu expect karega, utni zyaada hi tujhe disappointment hogi. Tu jaa aur Sanju ma'am se baat kar aur apna point samjha ki tu kyun aur kya feel kar raha tha."

He nodded. He kissed her forehead. "Thanks, bro. You're the best."

She smiled, watching him run off. She turned her gaze to the city, leaning against the pillar.

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Faizi closed the door of the room behind himself. He sat down on an empty chair, next to Karan, who was watching Sanju quietly as well. She was hobbling back and forth from her cupboard to the bed, setting her clothes. Usually, she'd be punching away things in the gym, but her sprained foot had her restricted. It only made her angrier.

She turned her gaze towards them after a couple of minutes, sighing a little. Karan wordlessly gestured to Monami's tidy bed, and she sat down, sighing.

"Bataane ka mann nahi hai ya mahurat ka intezaar kar rahi hai?" Karan asked after a minute.

She heaved a sigh, launching into her tale and explaining everything. The two hummed.

"Tujhe pata hai, Sanju? Jab Bhaiya pehli baar mission par gaye the, main 8 saal ka tha. Mujhe pata tha log shaheed hote hain, par kabhi kisi ka marna paas se nahi experience kara tha, isliye mujhe yeh baat dhang se samajh nahi aayi thi. Sabne mujhe hamesha usse door rakhne ki hi koshish kari thi jab main chhota tha. Mujhe laga Bhaiya gaye hain, toh waapas toh aayenge hi, jaise hamesha aate hain, par Batra ma'am ko bahut darr lag raha tha. Mujhe bilkul samajh nahi aaya ki unhe itna darr kyun lag raha tha. Ab jab badha ho gaya hoon, toh samajh aata hai ki unhe darr kyun lag raha tha. Yeh baat bataane ka yeh purpose hai ki kabhi kabhi jo cheezen hume unimportant lagti hai, ya chhoti lagti hain, woh kisi aur ke liye bahut badhi hoti hain."

Sanju nodded slowly, trying to digest his words.

'Aapke liye woh chhoti si baat hogi, ma'am. Meri liye nahi hai.'

'Main kyun, kab, kaise react kar raha hoon, aapne bina samjhe hi yeh declare kar diya ki meri feelings insignificant hain?'

"Sanju, tumne kal ek baat notice kari?" Faizi asked. "Jab Siddharth ne Monami ko sorry bola, toh woh iss baat par nahi bola tha ki woh ghabra gayi thi, woh iss baat par bola tha ki jab Monami use dhoond rahi thi, toh woh nahi tha uske saath."

'Baat yeh nahi hai ki Monami theek hai ya nahi. Baat yeh hai...'

Sanju heaved a sigh. "Hume poori baat sunni aur samajhni chahiyo thi, na?"

Faizi smiled a little. "Log ek baar mein samajh nahi aate hain, Sanju." His grin widened a little. "Kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki koi samajh aa gaya aur phir agle din woh kuchh aisa kar deta hai jisse lagta hai ki hume toh kuchh pata hi nahi hai uss insaan ke baare mein."

The two tilted their heads, nodding a little in agreement to his words. There was a knock on the door before it opened a little. Siddharth peeked in.

"Aa jao, Siddharth", Faizi called. He gave Sanju a look as the two majors stood up, leaving the other two to talk.

"Isko kya sapna aata hai ki humaari baat kab khatam ho gayi hai? Doosri baar aise time par aaya hai," Karan said, as they walked back. He punched Faizi's arm. "Tujhe kyun nahi aa sakte aise sapne? Monami finally mujhse baat kar rahi thi, aur tu aa gaya beech mein."

Faizi rubbed his arm. "Uska talent hai. Humaare paas nahi hai ab, toh hum kya karein?" He smiled slightly. "Par hume dikh raha hai ki tum Monami se baat karne ke liye kitne eager ho."

He glared at him. "Tu phir shuru ho gaya uss line par? Main sirf uski help karna chahta hoon." Faizi just smiled, making Karan huff in irritation.

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Sid grabbed a chair, sitting down. "Hi", he said. She nodded a little in greeting. She eyed him. He didn't seem angry anymore. She relaxed a little.

"Gussa shaant ho gayo tera?" She asked.

He winced a little. "Haan, woh..." He paused. "Let me explain. Main upset isliye nahi tha kyunki Monu ko panic attack aaya tha yaa woh itna dari hui thi. Main upset isliye tha kyunki jab woh mujhe dhoond rahi thi, main nahi tha uske paas." He sighed. "Ma'am... Monu, na, mere liye bahut zyaada important hai. Hum ek doosre ko hamesha se jaante hain. Jab chhote the, tab toh aur log the humaare saath- humaare parents, par badhe hue, toh... humaari mothers toh rahi nahi, aur hum dono ka relationship humaare fathers ke saath kaafi complicated ho gaya. Phir, bas hum dono hi bache ek doosre ke paas. Uska dhyaan rakhna meri responsibility hai, aur yeh responsibility main bahut seriously leta hoon. Yeh mere liye big deal hai."

She nodded a little. "Tera rishta Monami ke saath kaisa hai, woh tum dono jaante ho, aur tum dono hi samajhte ho. Par... hum tujhe yeh baat zaroor bataa sakto hain ki tu uska bahut achhe se dhyaan rakhto hain, aur yeh baat Monami ko bhi pato hai. Kal bhi tha tu uske saath. Toh apne aap ko itna kosa mat kar."

He frowned. "Sorry but what's kosa?" Sanju sighed, shaking her head in exasperation.

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Faizi held up a green t-shirt. "Yeh?"

Karan scrunched his nose up. "Kaccha kela lagega."

"Kaccha kela?" He muttered in confusion, keeping it back in. He tilted his head, picking up another one. "Yeh?"

He frowned. "Yeh kya hai? Kisi 2 saal ke bacche ko finger paint karne ke liye pakda diya tha kya? Baby isse achha pattern banaa legi. Jala de ise. Pocha banaane layak bhi nahi hai."

"Itni bhi buri nahi hai." Faizi picked up a black shirt, holding it up. "Yeh theek hai, na?"

"Woh sadak mein black tar daalta hai? Tu woh lagega. Apne upar white lines bhi paint karle, chalta phirta sadak lagega." He paused a little. "Ironic, nahi? Sadak chalegi?"

"Karan, yaar, hadd hoti hai. Simple black shirt hai. Tum, na, bakwaas mat karo", Faizi snapped. Karan's lips tugged up in an amused smile, and he chuckled a little. "Tum humaare saath mazaak kar rahe ho?"

"Tujhe itni der baad samajh aa raha hai?" Karan asked, chuckling. "Kuchh bhi pehen le. Itna kya soch raha hai?"

"Date hai, Janaab", he said. "Aise thodi naa hota hai."

"Jaakar khaana hi toh khaa kar aana hai. Restaurant jaa rahe ho, na? Use tujh mein interest hai yaa tere kapdon mein?"

Faizi rolled his eyes. "Date khaane ke liye nahi hoti hai. Aur achha dikhna zaroori hota hai date par." He picked up one of the t-shirt Karan had rejected. "Sach sach batao. Yeh theek hai kya?"

Karan shrugged. "Haan, theek hai", he said.

"Hum... hum kaccha kela toh nahi lagenge, na?" Faizi asked.

He tilted his head, inspecting it. "Naa. Kacche kele ka color thoda sa dark hota hai isse. Ghaas lag sakta hai. Ghaas ka yeh hi color hota hai, na?"

"Karan!" Faizi said. "Hum, na, Batra ma'am ko complain kar denge ki tum hume bahut tang karte ho."

"Achha, theek hai", he said, chuckling. "Black shirt pehen le."

"Pakka?"

"Haan, haan. Black mein sab achhe lagte hain."

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Koel quickly closed the door behind her, hurrying out. She was almost late. Faizi must be waiting. She turned the corner. She froze when she heard the noises approach, and she winced, taking a couple of steps back. She was yanked aside suddenly, a bandaged hand pressing against her mouth. Her eyes widened.

Monami.

She quickly pushed open the door of a store room, pulling her inside and shutting it. A second later, lots of footsteps passed by and Koel relaxed a little. "Agar sn-sneak out k-karna hai, toh b-bina d-dekha k-kaun k-karta hai?" Monami asked.

"Woh main..."

"D-Date par j-jaa r-rahi thi?"

Her eyes widened. "Tumhe kisne bataaya? S-Sabko pata hai kya yeh?"

She shook her head. She leaned back against the wall, a small smile on her face. "Aise k-kapdon mein t-tum aur k-kahan jaa r-rahi hogi?" She asked, crossing her arms. Koel looked down at her dress. She sighed.

"Monami... please kisi aur ko mat bataana yeh. I don't want anyone to know."

She smiled at her, nodding. "S-Sure."

"Sid ko bhi nahi."

Monami imitated zipping her lips, and throwing the key away. She looked her up and down. "One th-thing m-missing", she said. She unhooked her bracelet. She grabbed her wrist, hooking it onto her. "P-Perfect. F-Faizi S-Sir dekhenge toh d-dekhte hi r-reh j-jaayenge."

"Tum kya mind reader ya kuchh ho?" Koel asked. "Ab yeh kaise pata tumhe ki meri date Faizi ke saath hai?"

"J-Jab m-mere kamre mein d-dance p-party ho r-rahi thi, toh t-tumne F-Faizi Sir ko kh-khud d-dance ke l-liye p-puchha. Aur welcome p-party mein bhi s-sirf woh hi ek l-ladke the j-jinke s-saath tumne d-dance kara. Aaj bhi, tum e-extra h-happy l-lag rahi thi, aur F-Faizi Sir ko d-dekh r-rahi thi, aur woh bhi t-tumhe d-dekh r-rahe the. I th-thought aap d-dono ek d-doosre ko p-pasand k-karte ho, d-didn't know a-actually s-saath ho."

"It's a recent development", she admitted.

Monami smiled. "I h-hope t-tum h-happy ho." She opened the door a little, peeking out. "I th-think r-raasta c-clear hai. Ek s-second." She opened the door wider, stepping out. She gestured her out. She pulled her along, helping her out of the academy. "H-Have fun."

"Thank you", she said. "Help karne ke liye bhi."

Monami gave her a thumbs up. "Ab j-jao, F-Faizi Sir w-wait k-kar r-rahe hain."

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Koel laced her hands with Faizi, sighing happily, as they walked on the street. Evening had fallen, the sky a beautiful shade of pink and orange. It spanned over them, seen amidst the canopy of trees.

"Nice date", she said.

He smiled. "Ek cheez bachi hai", he said.

Her eyebrows furrowed. "Kya?" She glanced at her watch. "7 baj gaye hain. 8 se late jaayenge toh daant padegi."

"8 se late nahi hoga", he assured. "Hume ek bahut achhi jagah pata hai, jahan par bahut achha dessert milta hai. Bas 2 minute lagenge."

Koel hooked her arm with his. "Toh chalo."

Faizi pushed open the door to the shop, letting her go in first. "Yahan ka blueberry cheesecake bahut zyaada achha hai", Faizi said."Kuchh aur try karo yaa naa karo, yeh toh try karna banta hai."

"Blueberry cheesecake?" She perked up. "Mujhe bahut pasand hai."

He placed the order, before pulling back a chair for her. She smiled at him, sitting down and Faizi sat down in front of her. "Tumhe pata hai, jab main chhoti thi toh mujhe cheesecake itna pasand tha ki main har roz maangti thi. Aur jab milta tha, toh chodhti nahi." The waiter placed the two plates in front of them. Koel smiled at him. "Thank you."

"Humne pehli baar cheesecake tab try kara tha, jab hum 12 saal ke the. Jahan hum rehte the, wahan par cheesecake aas paas ke kisi bhi shop par nahi hote the. Phir ek baar hum apni Ammi ke dost ke ghar gaye the. Jab unhe pata chala ki hume meetha bahut pasand hai, toh woh hume lekar gaye the aur tab humne pehli baar cheesecake khaaya tha."

She clicked her tongue. "Tumne apni life ke pehle 12 saal bina cheesecake ke kaise nikaale?" He laughed a little. He shrugged, eating a bite. Koel took a big bite, licking her lips. "So good."

Faizi held up a spoonful to her mouth. She glanced up at him, a slight blush spreading on her cheeks. His lips tugged up in a smile, and he nodded to it. She leaned forward, and he fed her the bite.

Her left hand slid over to his, clutching it lightly. He squeezed back, entangling his fingers with hers as they both ate. Shy, comfortable silence fell between them.

As they walked back to the jeep, Faizi narrated a tale of an incident in his days as a cadet. Koel smiled to herself, glancing down at their hands. They hadn't let go since the café. She didn't want to let go.

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Sid looked up when the door to the mess opened. Koel walked in, a small smile on her face. His eyes narrowed slightly, inspecting her. He tilted his head.

"Koel, tu kahan thi?" Suman ji asked. "Suman ji ne tujhe khaane ke time kitna dhoonda. Kahan chali gayi thi?"

"Woh... woh mujhe bhookh nahi thi toh main thodi der chhat par chali gayi thi."

"Chhat par?" Bala repeated. "Chatt par toh main dekhkar aaya tha. Aap toh nahi dikhi mujhe."

"Wahin thi main", she said. "Tune dhang se dekha nahi hoga."

He shrugged, nodding. "Shayad", he conceded.

"B-Bala, tera b-birthday aa r-raha hai, na?" Monami interjected. "T-Tujhe kya ch-chahiye g-gift mein?"

"Oh, haan. Main toh bhool hi gayi thi. Bala, #gift bataa. Kya chahiye tujhe?" Chitra asked. "Kal chhuti hai, na, hum kal le aayenge."

Bala frowned. "Taufa? Mujhe apne janamdin par kabhi taufa nahi mila. Hume khaane ke liye mil jaata tha, woh hi bahut tha. Taufe ke paise kahan se laate." He grinned. "Jo bhi doge, main khushi khushi le lunga."

The cadets glanced at each other. "Tune apna janamdin kabhi nahi manaaya?" Suman ji asked. He shook his head.

"Bala G bro, iss baar tera birthday blast hone waala hai", Sid declared. "21 saal ka hoga, na? Sabki kasar nikaal denge."

Koel hit his arm. "Hum academy mein hain, Sid. Zyaada badhe promises mat kar. Pata nahi trainers kya allow karenge."

"Bala, hum sab tumhaara janamdin achhe se manaayenge", Prem ji said. "Agar trainers ijaazat nahi bhi denge, toh hum aas paas waale ravivaar ko tumhaare liye kuchh karenge."

Bala smiled a little. "Sach mein?"

"#Of course", Chitra said. "#Birthday toh special hona hi chahiye."

"Mere liye, na, kabhi koi cake nahi lekar aaya. Hum cake laa sakte hain?" He asked.

"C-Cake ke b-bina b-birthday h-hota hai?" Monami asked. "C-Cake toh aa-aayega hi." She smiled at him. "T-Tumhe jo ch-chahiye, woh h-hum s-sab k-karenge, as l-long as t-trainers m-manaa naa karein."

He grinned. "Hum balloons laa sakte hain? Aur... aur hum sab milkar bahut saara khaana khaayenge. Aur..."

The cadets smiled as he raved on, talking about food and dancing and music. They weren't sure what they were allowed to do, but they would try their absolute best to make it a good one for him.